Your everlasting summer You can see it fading fast So you grab a piece of something That you think is gonna last You wouldn't know a diamond If you held it in your hand The things you think are precious I can't understand
CHORUS: Are you reelin' in the years Stowin' away the time Are you gatherin' up the tears Have you had enough of mine
You been tellin' me you're a genius Since you were seventeen In all the time I've known you I still don't know what you mean The weekend at the college Didn't turn out like you planned The things that pass for knowledge I can't understand
CHORUS
I spend a lot of money And I spent a lot of time The trip we made in Hollywood Is etched upon my mind After all the things we've done and seen You find another man The things you think are useless I can't understand
Wife walked in my bedroom this morning as I was surfing the web on my laptop. "I need to know where you are" is how it started. And it didn't get any better... We talked for about two hours. I told her I was indifferent to being either married or divorced. She said, "let's just end it and move on." I told her I didn't want to hurt the kids, etc. We weren't getting anywhere.
She again accused me of having "internet sex," and asked if I was corresponding with her boyfriend's wife. I paused... looked away and said, "no." I left a little doubt as to whether I was telling the truth. Not sure why I wanted to do that... and she asked why I paused before answering. I told her I was pondering reasons as to why she was asking. And as we were talking, my phone buzzed. She said, "there's a text from your girlfriend." Of course, I knew otherwise, and showed the text was from a work-related website, alerting me that it had been updated. Also, showed her other texts I got from airline, notifying me of upgrades, etc. Yeah, she sure busted me.... Nice job Barney Fife...
And the most hurtful (helpful, actually) thing she said was, "In hindsight, I would definitely do it over again (the affair). I learned so much about myself." Thanks for that, sweetheart. Make it easy for me.....
This clearly tells me that she hasn't changed a bit. I am indeed too good for her. She is a lying, cheating person who hides from or runs from her problems. There is no room in my life for somebody like that... and especially somebody who says so as if it were nothing at all. Oh, and in response I said, "so in the future when things aren't going well, you just go have an affair??" Oh, no no ..... of course not.
I did come out and tell her that I am 50/50. I do believe that with work, we can fix the marriage. She said she has gone 'over the cliff' and cannot come back. OK.... But I did tell her that I am indifferent. I told her I don't care any more.
I had been pondering which of about five songs I was going to use next. During TG dinner, this one came on, and I stared at her while it played. She refused to look at me...
It was like a message from above. And I knew which song to use next.
what a BI$$!! Im sorry. I cannot believe she actually say she would do it all over again!! WTF!! Shes sick in the head. She would hurt her family again???? What a good wife and mother she is:(.
All she is doing is pushing you further. For her to say she can't come back from this..well at this point I would call her bluff.. I know that's dangerous but what do you have to lose at this point? Why though did she ask "where are you".. what does she care if she's already decided its not going to work... helllooo.. maybe she wants you to beg her to stay?? I don't know, I really can't read this woman. she a crazy person.
You've done a great job Mark, and that's all you can do. She is in a different place than you and you are exactly right, you ARE better than her and Deserve better!! They deserve each other!!
Again, I am sorry it has to come to this.
(((hugs)))
tal
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Well, W, Mark has learned that he is a very strong person, is a wonderful father, a fit and active person, a good friend, a trustworthy person, and a wonderful employee. What did you learn about yourself, exactly, W?
You are right, she isn't all 'there'. Not that she is deranged by any means, but she is depressed, guilty, MLC'ing...whatever...and she is spewing to make herself feel better.
