I am glad you posted. I would dearly value your input on some of my recent interactions and legal sitch if you have time. Lovely to hear from you. I hope all is well across the pond.
M: 35, EX-W: 3, S:4 All Divorce Proceedings Complete - Oct 18 ----------------------------------------------------- 2nd EX - Was Engaged - Diagnosed BPD 2 Major breakups. 2 Rebounds
WW: "Its my dads birthday today, i he would really like it if he got to talk to video chat with James if you guys have a moment. Just figured I'd mention it."
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1.) if thats the case he can contact me himself. 2.) given his recently discovered "History" i am not to compelled to do this.
Although i may still be viewing through a lens of bitterness. Recommendations on if i should reply to WW, or call FIL? Im assuming no. As of now i dont plan on replying.
M: 35, EX-W: 3, S:4 All Divorce Proceedings Complete - Oct 18 ----------------------------------------------------- 2nd EX - Was Engaged - Diagnosed BPD 2 Major breakups. 2 Rebounds
I am taking an exam on Wednesday as that means I can't support as much and give your posts my full attention then I will hold back until that's all done.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
Well i never responded to the text about video chatting withs WW"s Dad. I felt guilty about it around 6:30-7:00pm last night, and called my mom to see what her opinion was. She let me know FIL was checked in at a bar in FL. He has health issues and shouldn't be drinking, my mother also said "WW could have called him on Sunday when she had him till 5 or she can call him tonight. Even in all the years you two were together she didnt ever call or video chat with me and S3. Ever. Not your responsibility anymore Son"
Moving on with my week. Super excited about my interview tomorrow. thatll be huge if i land that. Ill be able to get my own place and a new car in no time if that happens.
Started excersize routine again last night. Gotta stick with it this time!!
I have been talking with a friend who is into meditation and nature healing. Also helping A LOT. Grounding has been super beneficial.
Still feeling good. Powering on.
Orange K, The Phoenix is crawling from the ashes. Time to fly.
M: 35, EX-W: 3, S:4 All Divorce Proceedings Complete - Oct 18 ----------------------------------------------------- 2nd EX - Was Engaged - Diagnosed BPD 2 Major breakups. 2 Rebounds
Oh and me and my roommate are almost done building our blacksmith shop. i cannot wait for it to be done and filled with tools so we can start smashing steel.
M: 35, EX-W: 3, S:4 All Divorce Proceedings Complete - Oct 18 ----------------------------------------------------- 2nd EX - Was Engaged - Diagnosed BPD 2 Major breakups. 2 Rebounds
This songs lyrics have been helping me get through. A bit coarse but accurate.
"Theres a place where everyone can be happy, its the most beautiful place in the whole F***ing world. Its made of candy canes and planes and bright red choo choo trains and the meanest little boys, the most innocent little girls.
And, you know, i wish that i could go there its a road that i have not found and i wish you the best of luck dear drop a card or a letter to my side of town
Cause there's no time for fussing and fighting my friend and Baby, I'm amazed at the hatred you can send and you painted my entire world but I don't have the turpentine to clean what you have soiled and i wont forget it.
There's a place where everyone can be right Even though you remain determined to be opposed Admittance requires no qualifications It's where everyone has been and where everybody goes So please try not to be impaitent for we all hate standing in line and when the farm is good and bought you'll be there without a thought, and eternity, my friend, is a long F***ing time.
Cause there's no time for fussing and fighting my friend and Baby, I'm amazed at the hatred you can send and you painted my entire world but I don't have the turpentine to clean what you have soiled and i wont forget it."
Bad Religion - "You"
M: 35, EX-W: 3, S:4 All Divorce Proceedings Complete - Oct 18 ----------------------------------------------------- 2nd EX - Was Engaged - Diagnosed BPD 2 Major breakups. 2 Rebounds
woke up feeling a bit angry about things today. Although it's different this time around it feels like it's coming from a long way off. About to go into that job interview so I'm feeling optimistic about that. just one of those mornings where I'm in a bit of disbelief that the woman who made me fall Head Over Heels never existed. started back up on my exercise and meal prep routine last night feeling good about that.
M: 35, EX-W: 3, S:4 All Divorce Proceedings Complete - Oct 18 ----------------------------------------------------- 2nd EX - Was Engaged - Diagnosed BPD 2 Major breakups. 2 Rebounds
This is definitely a roller-coaster ride OK. So just when you think are over it you will panic, be angry, etc. I remember talking to one friend I confided in and I was on a high that day. Told this friend W was going to be the one regretting her choices and that I was good to move forward.
Of course the next day I was in the pit of despair and hopelessness. And just wanted to hold onto W for dear life.
You are well prepared, I like the action you are taking (exercise and meal prep). I encourage you to continue to find way to GAL. Staying busy is the key to remaining even.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
I hope all is well across the pond.