Haha! So, that was something. I dunno what to make of it.
I basically told her what I planned on saying. I left out the part of what I would want from the R if we were ever to move forward.
She basically responded by apologizing for the BD coming out of nowhere and that she was there as a friend if I needed her.
The convo basically ended itself and there was nothing more to it. So, I have no idea why she wanted to chat in the first place now - maybe give me some airtime to let out my grievances.
I am basically back to DBing as usual and working on myself and my goals. Going to remain NC/dark outside of kids stuff.
I was expecting a long convo, but it was fairly short. She didn't show any real emotion during it and it was very business like. Guess it's done and there's nothing more to it.
No she didn't ask any questions, but she is sending me some text messages now. I don't particularly feel like responding. She's saying the following:
she's telling me I have always been amazing and that I was unhappy. She couldn't figure out how to make me happy. In this she became sad and alone and that we weren't best for each other. She's happy that I am focusing on myself and finding happiness.
She texted me more after that saying that I was always an amazing man and that she hopes my kids turn out like me, but I was also unhappy because I was depressed.
The unhappiness part is true because I was definitely depressed with so many insane things in my life. I was unhappy about certain things in the MR, which were fixable IMHO. I realized I was unhappy about it after the LBS fog was out of the picture.
So, she's wishing me all the best and blah blah blah.. oh well, she's definitely not moved an inch in her position so all of this is just adding more salt to the injury.
Part of me feels like responding and validating that she felt alone and sad because of all of this, but I just don't know if I have it in me right now.
