Well, today H took our GD out and both D and me bumped in to them while out shopping in our local supermarket.
She had a couple of toys with her, he told us that she said her Mama said she could have 3 toys from Papa.....little minx!
But he didn't mind.....
On returning he came over for a cup of tea and a chat about my treatment, which I explained in detail and made it quite clear that I have no real worries about this cancer and D is fine to take me to all my treatments.
He wanted to take me to the furthest hospital that he is familiar with. 90 mins there,3 hours for the injection to reach my bones, scan and then 90 mins back.
Err.......no! Can you imagine?!
So, on leaving he again reached out for a Cwtch.....it was longer than last time and he did smell my neck.
I ended it saying "take care" and he replied...."no YOU take care".
He had tears in his eyes and while I felt love in his cwtch, saw longing in his eyes.
I'm not in denial, I know the man. But......I am mindful to behave with dignity and if he wants more knows that for me to want that too, he will have to put his big boy pants on and do all the work.
You handled the day quite well. I'm glad you stood your ground about the hospital situation.
As for your GD, she knows how to play the game w/Papa! LOL!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
H was going to see his parents when he left yesterday, so I emailed him this morning to ask if he'd managed to allay his mums fears about the severity of this diagnosis.
He has just replied that he did...........with a X at the end.
Hey Westo, just stopping by to say 'hi'! Your GD certainly has him wrapped around her little finger!
Ooh a little 'X' on the end of his text to you! Sounds like he's getting a little more comfortable with you but as you said stand your ground and let him do all the hard work!
Have a great long weekend!!
Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')
Love reading your updates. Your H is clearly going through something right now. I really hope that he keeps it up. Remember to keep those pesky expectations in check though.
I can picture your sweet little village, your daughter across the way, the beautiful countryside, and your angelic grandkids. Sounds like a lovely life.
Went for pre admission tests today and H met us in the hospital car park to take GD to Pizza Hut. He was under strict instructions not to buy her a toy as she has been very cheeky.
He bought her a bathing costume, the little minx asked for one.....ffs!
He ended up back at the hosp and accompanied us for my bloods. To be fair he made a real effort with GS and followed him everywhere, putting him on his shoulders. He seems just like his old self only fatter.
He asked if D had the brakes done yet and I said no, but we will be fine on our journey tomorrow for my bone scan. He said again he could take us, but I thanked him and said we will be ok.
He is making a very special effort.....which is great. But I am concentrating on me.
We will see what the future brings but I am in no hurry....
Well, just got back from the bone scan. I'm really tired, it's been a long day.
H texted D this morning to say that if he can help in any way or if she's struggling to just let him know. He added 'remember I love you all, sorry I don't say it'.
We had to kill time shopping, and I found some lovely silver bracelets each with a charm with different meanings.
So, as its 1st June and the day H told us he loved us all, I bought one titled 'New Beginnings'.
