They do make you think. But then I just told myself that it was a dream- it was not real life (somewhat exaggerated version of real life). So began to get on with my day. I guess there is a little sadness inside me that hasn't been there the last few days, but what can I do apart from keep walking forwards.
Me 26 H 25 M 4 T 5 Baby born 4/14 BD: 1/15 EA: 2/15 PA: 4/15 reconciling: 4/15 ILYBINILWY- 11/15 ILY-1/16 ILYBNILWY 4/16 ILY 6/16 ILYBINILWY 6/16 Baby due 3/17 BD 8/16
After a day of non stop vomitting. H comes home angry. Saying we need to talk and we need to do it away from the house. I've explained that I can't leave the house as I've been non stop sick. He angrily tells me that yes I can leave here to talk. I don't get his urgency and I don't get why it needs to be done outside of the house. And just like this, my anxiety is sky high again. And I'm thinking what on earth is it that needs to be this urgent, and outside of the house.
I just can't deal with this!
Me 26 H 25 M 4 T 5 Baby born 4/14 BD: 1/15 EA: 2/15 PA: 4/15 reconciling: 4/15 ILYBINILWY- 11/15 ILY-1/16 ILYBNILWY 4/16 ILY 6/16 ILYBINILWY 6/16 Baby due 3/17 BD 8/16
When you tell him, you have to look him square in the eye and maintain that eye contact. And stand tall. Get that inner strength back. You're on your way.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
Thank you. I felt I was, but it's been a bit of an off day from the start. But you're right, I'll try my best to hold it together, and stand my ground. I'm not in the mood to be talked down to or bullied. The more I keep learning about him and the lies he has told about me has helped to seperate him from the man I married.
Me 26 H 25 M 4 T 5 Baby born 4/14 BD: 1/15 EA: 2/15 PA: 4/15 reconciling: 4/15 ILYBINILWY- 11/15 ILY-1/16 ILYBNILWY 4/16 ILY 6/16 ILYBINILWY 6/16 Baby due 3/17 BD 8/16
((Cherry)), has he no respect for the woman he married who is carrying HIS child! When he insisted you go out of the house to talk even though you said you were being sick, you should have just thrown up all over him!
Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')
Yeah that would have been an idea! I stood my ground and said I'd only speak to me if he treated me with respect, and if he wasn't ready to speak to me like a human being and not condescending then I'd wait until he could.
He apologised. He said he wanted to tell me he was going to file (I already know that because I saw his notes). He wanted to speak through it and hoped that we could do it as amicably as possible. I said that it's not what I want, but he knows that, and he also knows that there isn't a lot I can do about that. He said he didn't want to hurt me and can't help his feelings. I validated. He said he hoped we could get along for the kids. I spoke calmly and validated. I said I would instruct a L to deal with it for me. I said I wanted full custody, he agreed to that. I said I wasn't a money grabber so I wasn't set out to ruin him, he knew that. If anything he probably thinks he can do what he wants because I'm a decent human being. I told him it would be difficult right now to be a friend, as that's not the role I want. He doesn't know when he will file, he is trying to find a place to live first, and is shopping around for solicitors. He apologised for the way he feels, I validated and said I understand they are his feelings. He admitted he was struggling to come to terms that I'm pregnant because it's "not the right time", I said that while they are his feelings, I am happy and this baby is wanted in my eyes. I did get teary, damn hormones. But I kept it together, I thought everything through, and I spoke calmly. I didn't beg, plead or get angry.
When it felt like all was said, I got up and left. He thanked me for hearing him out and speaking l to him like an adult.
I can now have a little weep and get on with it. He's had his talk now. At the end of the day none of this was new information. I saw his plans last week, I knew he was going to do this.
Me 26 H 25 M 4 T 5 Baby born 4/14 BD: 1/15 EA: 2/15 PA: 4/15 reconciling: 4/15 ILYBINILWY- 11/15 ILY-1/16 ILYBNILWY 4/16 ILY 6/16 ILYBINILWY 6/16 Baby due 3/17 BD 8/16
Cherry - you did great sweetie. I hope you've had a good rest and will face the new day with bright eyes.
On BD H52, W50 T27, M26 S21, D23 BD-9-Mar-16 D-15-Jan-18 Final-19-Apr-18 I am a storyteller. The story may do you no good. But a story is never for the listener. It is always for the one who tells
I find this abhorrent. What kind of man runs away from his family, while his wife is pregnant. The longer I'm here, the more I find divorce to be cowardly.....
You did a pretty damn good job, but the guy deserves to have plates thrown at him lol.
Me: 35 W: 32 S: 4 T: 6 M: 4 Physical Separation official: 5/21 Currently: DR/DBing, Focusing on me and son
Cheating on a good person is like throwing away a diamond and picking up a rock.
