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[poschan]

had a good day Saturday golfing with friends and all day yesterday with d7. we had a great day. thanks for checking in SH. SH where can I find your latest thread?

[poschan]

I still get knots in my stomach for some reason. Trying to use meditation techniques to help. I miss having d7 here and trying to keep myself busy so that I don't get so depressed. She is the light of my world. I will have d7 tomorrow through Friday so that will be a welcome change. not hardly any communication with WAW other than occasional text. I picked up d7 for Fathers day activities at WAW house and WAW said happy fathers day and gave me a hug. d7 has big events these next 2 nights and I will be her biggest fan and supporter. trying to hang in there. tough to get out of bed in the mornings and I tend to get more accomplished in the afternoon/evening.
Able to sleep without meds but still wake at odd hours sometimes with great sadness. I have also been having dreams about WAW which is new.

[PacLove]

I had dreams about WAW too the last few days.. you are not alone. It is probably the loneliness kicking in.

Enjoy every moment with your D, my relationship with my D9 has really blossomed over the last 3 months and we are probably much closer now than we have ever been.

[poschan]

Thanks Pac. I really miss seeing her everyday but I need to accept this new reality as difficult as it is. The pain and sorrow is excruciating. I know in time it will lessen and pass but some days are just plain hard

[SH_]

had a good day Saturday golfing with friends and all day yesterday with d7. we had a great day. thanks for checking in SH. SH where can I find your latest thread?

Take it one day at a time my friend. You are doing well.
Dreams are a bugger. The mind wants to make sense of what the mind wants to make sense of.
I try to determine what was in my head that would have my mind paint a dream. This takes the sting out of it, because then I know why the mind went there. Makes me feel more in control. I discussed a dream in one of my threads and how I connected the dots.
Works for me, but I know there are different schools of thought on dreams.
I say acknowledge them, but try not to dwell on them if they hurt.

Here is my latest thread. SH latest thread

[poschan]

Thanks SH. Weird experience last night at d7 big event. d7 sat in between WAW and me and put both of our hands in her lap in a group hand hold. it was nice. WAW asked me to get her a glass of wine, she seemed a little tipsy but I obliged. WAW seemed happy and playful with me not sure what to make of it since there has been hardly any communication between us. At one point WAW commented that "this may be good for us". Not sure what to read into it all. WAW was cursing a lot not out of anger just during normal conversation. d7 has 2d night of event so it will be interesting to see how WAW acts. Any opinion on her change of behavior?

[sandi2]

Why read into it? You said she was tipsy. Give her a couple of hours, she'll change again.

[poschan]

thanks sandi, I was expecting a 2x4 or 2

[poschan]

you were right sandi. completely different animal last night. less communication and more ugly looks. WAW mom was there so maybe that had something to do with it. WAW syndrome continues! how is it possible to even be hopeful for repair when WAW lives separately and there is little to no communication?

[SH_]

There is always hope.
The separation may benefit for her clearing the fog.
But for now, time is the gift.
Use it to be the man you would want to be so that of the fog clears you will be in ready.
If the fog does not clear, then you will still be ready for what ever is next in your future.
Stay the course. Focus on you.