You are right. OM was never out of her system and our attempt at a R suffered. She was never attracted to me like she was. We both felt off. The emotional connection was there, but she didn't desire to be physical.
I can't claim to know what she wants between me or OM. I know I won't let her cake eat or have both of us. I have made it up that as long as OM is on her mind there will be no R. There can't be, at least not a healthy R that I deserve.
