determined to overcome this storm part 2

[CaliGuy]

Hang in there, I know it's tough but nothing you've posted is new here. Your WAH is thinking he has found happiness, the D is the door to that happiness... It is not till he walks through it and things become real for him that he will have to start dealing with reality. During this time, D or not you have an oppurtunity to work on yourself and be better and stronger because of this, you did not ask for it... But this will not destroy nor define you. It's time to let him go for a bit and you owe it to yourself and your kids to find that strength deep inside you to do this.

The first thing I did... I got out of bed. Then... I made it. Every damn morning... Make the bed... Take the time to make it perfectly, this strata your day off with a sense of accomplishment.

[overcom]

I know it's just me whining and crying

[WhyUs]

Glad you have had a change in your mentality. That is why this forum is so good. It keeps us going when things seem hopeless

[Ancaire]

No more pity parties. No more moping around. Today I will start being confident beautiful person I am... I have God on my side. And all of you supporting me..

Yes, you do. I pray for you everyday. You can do this, O. It sounds like your H doesn't know what he really wants. Be strong for yourself...you deserve good things, and you can make them happen.

[overcom]

Yes it's a great forum and great support group. You guys keep me from falling. But today was great. No calls, texts or emails. No crying. Busy at work so didn't have time to think about him and now home with kids. He text me about my daughter since she's had a fever for the past 3 days amd I just messaged back saying she's fine for now. End of text... it's hard but I'm doing it.

[overcom]

Thanks judy for praying for me. I really appreciate it. He doesn't know. He thinks he's in love with this girl but who knows. He wines and dines her but at the end of the day she'll never be me...

[Ancaire]

Fantastic, Overcom! You are getting it! Give him something to miss. Be happy without him. It makes such a difference when all your hopes and dreams aren't pinned on one outcome. You get strong. That is worth so very much.

[gonegrl]

O, you are right, she never will be you! You are doing great. And you will never be a druggie cheater, so it is his loss.

[overcom]

Girl I am so afraid of drugs. lol I will never ever in my life have the guts to even be around ppl who do drugs. im a lover, one man kind of girl. i dont like hoping around. so my next lover (hoping my h) will be lucky, cause i have so much love to give....

[overcom]

So h called or actually he text saying are you going to bring the kids to the restaurant and I was already going to get out of the house so I can go get D2's medicine she's had a fever for the past 4 days so I just dropped them off at the restaurant and I said I'll be back I'm going to go pick up the medicine from my moms house and he was like oh okay I got to the restaurant you know and I didn't even say hi I just said hi to everybody else and that was it.

He kept looking at me to see if I'm going to look at him to see if I was going to be sad but I was laughing and smiling.
How did I do??

Update: he came home and saw me reading the Bible and he looked sad and I said to him cry out your problems to our lord. We had a nice chat about finding God again and asking forgiveness and helping you with your problems. I said yes I'm hurting but he's helping me get through this. Without him I'd be contemplating suicide again.
I asked him what he ment by saying this is only papers... his answer was pray and you'll get your answer. What does that mean? Anyway I kept my confidence high amd didn't cry or mop. I was in great spirits and even made him laugh.
So how did I do?