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[jim0987]

Well done mate. thats a really good effort

And 9" of the waist line - no way W hasnt noticed that. Probably helped by the 'wow' comments you've got from friends in front of her as well

I think my scrawny self can still claim the 'slim Jim' title though

[edz]

Hi Jim

Yup you're doubtless still slimmer than me

Oh I imagine w has noticed just not mentioned it thats ok though its a good change and I feel happier

Got to admit to being a little blue tonight though. Feel a bit lost for some reason. Maybe because yesterday was so busy from a getting out perspective so is tomorrow but tonight is a bit in the middle. Pretty much where I'm feeling.

Not so much a w thing more a where am I going thing really.

Imagine I'll be ok tomorrow

[jim0987]

Short term that's easy. Your going to have 6 days off and send a bunch of them with your S. All good Id say

[edz]

Ha. Yes mate 100% right. Suppose its the same old same old. What's going on in w's head and is it worth me waiting to find out or do I just move on.

Its all good, just the hour of the wolf earlier than normal I suppose.

But yes a couple of days with a cute, noisy, 10 year old 'erbert will doubtless help

[edz]

Hurumph, definite attack of the lonelys and limboland tonight. Not w per se, I'm just confused on w right now:

Emails, texts,conversations seem to start and then I'm blanked then we're talking then we stop. We get into conversations on r and then w shuts down and then bang radio silence.. No movement on signs of wanting to discuss reconciliation no signs on divorce no signs on doing much of anything although i know w and her friend are getting their hair done on a group offer tomorrow. She mentioned it back on Sunday before I knew I was off for sure, saved s from 3 hours at mil anyway.

But I digress.

Just feel somethings missing, its that close companionship I think, living with someone for a third of my life my brain got used to the input even when they weren't doing anything in particular just.... There.

Not sure why it's so prevalent tonight but there it is.

I say again hurumph....

A blue edz rising (note to self steal as a title,

self why are you telling me this?

Other self oh stop being awkward,

other self...err...this is getting a little worrying...

second self he started it....ok this has got a little meta dont you think?

Self yes shush and close the bracket and you can have a chocolate,

self.....ok)

What can I say, I'm bored as well....

Also gg, you ok..... Saw in your thread something about a break in?

[Ggrass]

Not house related. Can't say. I'm ok, like most of these cowardly acts done when I wasn't here.

[edz]

Hi gg, im glad youre ok, well not ok but o.k. if that makes any sense.

I won't pry as it doesn't seem to be something you want to go into, I can respect that.

Sending you good thoughts anyway. Take it easy, obviously just a pan global sucky evening today, this morning, ERM, now(ish)

[edz]

Morning peeps.

After a disturbed night getting going slowly this morning. Texted w to say I've got to exercise and shower and will be over 10ish. She texted back no problems they're still in bed so will need to get going themselves shortly.

It will be good to have s today, always is but I'm still feeling blue so he being with me will hopefully jolt me back a bit, we'll see.

Probably won't be about much till (my) tonight. Seemed all my dbbuds and i were all having a bit of a time yesterday at least in the evening so my positive thoughts to you all and a large hug to those who would feel better for one.

Edz

[edz]

Horrible weather here today. Just waiting on s getting ready before were off out. Went and picked him up from w she's a bit grumpy as her hairdresser called in sick so no styling today. Offered her breakfast but she said she needs to call friend and let her know its off and see what she says. Said fine.

W confirmed (without my conjoling in any way) she knows I want to talk on r and where we are going. She said its not the kind of thing she wants to discuss in email. Can't say that fills me with hope. Just said ok whenever she can set some time I'll be happy to talk but I get the impression its either "thing" about to surface officially or its her reasons to not reconcile. Thats better than the word document by email i had in july telling me why it was all my fault i suppose but i can't see her acting this way if she wants to talk about getting back together good news is i can't be dumped again as she already went but I'm not ultra hopeful on anything good either. Ah well. PMA was on full and just stayed upbeat and non demanding or clingy.

PMA to the Max right now but on a fake it mode I'm sorry to say. Well see how it is after a day with the small dynamo.

Catch you all later.

[jim0987]

Don't be so negative!!!! (Meant supportively)

It could be that she wants to say lots of positive things and talk to you about her fears.

If you have no expectations then you'll be fine either way.

Have a great day with your S