WAW - One month in but looking for coping advice

[South74]

Hi edz just wondering where abouts in the uk you live .

Like your list of goals which is something I'm going to have to sit down and do myself .

And how do you manage to swim 73 lengths ?

[edz]

Hi edz just wondering where abouts in the uk you live .

Like your list of goals which is something I'm going to have to sit down and do myself .

And how do you manage to swim 73 lengths ?

Hi mate I'm down near Poole on the south coast.ironically moved here back in 99 after meeting then soon to be w.

73 lengths took me about an hour and 20 minutes. That and sheer determination. Also pounding the water is a really good way to let off stress and rogue emotions try and do it every Sunday morning unless I have S that day in which case I'll have a bash after work in the week.

My list is fluid and just my interpretation on GAL like to have frameworks and this and the 37 rules are something for me to hang my days on.

Take it easy.
Edz

[South74]

Snap about location .
Was gonna send you a PM but it's disabled at the moment

[edz]

Hi Mate

Yes I think its off to ensure we all talk through forums postings (but I may be totally wrong there, mods please correct / delete if Ive got the wrong end of the stick)

[edz]

Hi All

Last night was a challenge for me. Wanted to text W so much that I had to - literally - put a movie on and sit on my hands and force myself to concentrate on the plot.

Heard nothing yesterday but apart from a text I sent in the morning (regarding S's schedule for next week) managed to not contact her.

Strange since I'd been doing reasonably well on detaching (for me anyway) but last night I felt like it was unmanageable, in myself I feel quite well, been avoiding alcohol as I don't want to create new problems either physical or alcohol contact related (texting/emails/calls)! Exercise is making me feel better and healthier (apart from chlorine irritating my sinuses!) weight loss is still going but my waist is being stubborn!

Still feel so hurt and lonely though, counsellor has been great and helped me see things from the other side and give me more insight for my 180s/GAL which I continue to work on but, right now, I just miss W being here in the evening to talk to and have dinner and a glass of wine with. Miss S in the mornings and at bedtime and when I can hear its quiet in the apartment.

Working today so something to keep my mind busy but I really must find something inexpensive, non alcohol related and not involving my dad at the moment (too many opinions right now), to fill in those long Sunday afternoons.

[South74]

edz

hope your day at work went ok and that it helped keep you busy and your mind from dwelling on negative thoughts.

[edz]

Morning all.

Yesterday was indeed busy, that and some remaining financial bits kept me occupied until gone 6, by the time I then had to go and get some bits from the shops (cats never stop eating or needing cat litter ) it was gone 7. With dinner it was 8 ish by the time I ran out of distractions.

Another difficult one yesterday night though, didnt sleep well and was still up and prowling about the apartment at 2:30 this morning. When the alarm went off at 6:45 it was not an easy thing to get to the shower!

I did forget to post on Saturday W did mention she's housesitting for a friend thursday night and told me to "pencil in" coming over to talk without a time limit. She immediately made that conditional by saying she may just want some time alone so Im assuming if I ask thats what she'll say rather then get too optimistic.

Other than that had to email her on some non M bits (just household / email stuff) she replied to those yesterday in a fairly lighthearted way but hasnt replied to those sent this morning, Im not getting too hung up on the lack of response, or at least trying not to - time - detatchment etc - but its so, so difficult.

Usual rollercoaster feelings one moment I feel full of energy, happy and facing things, next I just want to crawl into a hole and weep, nothing new to you guys I imagine.

Thanks for listening all

Edz

[South74]

Edz

glad to hear you had a busy day as i find that busy helps

whats works for me to help with sleeping is passion flower tablets.

South

[edz]

Thanks South may well have to give it a go, everyone else keeps recommending my normal tipple of rum before bedtime but Im staying fairly dry at the moment apart from the odd beer, I have no alcohol hang ups or problems but with my present mood I also dont want to aquire them or decide to send a regrettable text at 11pm!

[South74]

yeah understand about the alchohol i made that mistake a few weeks ago and said and did some things i shouldnt have done so on the soft drinks at the moment .