Was a great retreat. Got home Sunday night around 8pm. Longest I haven't talked to wife in 19yrs. Kids were happy to see me. W took off to the store when I got kiddies to bed. Said she needed sore throat lounges. Oh well back to same old stuff. Sick of it already.
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I had a great weekend at the retreat. no phones, no clocks, no tvs. It was a very moving weekend spiritually. I gave my sitch over to the man upstairs. My w was very interested in talking this am about the weekend. she called me on way to work and we talked for 15-20 minutes. The one thing I got from the weekend is to lover her unconditionally which is hard but something I need to do. she has a busy week with school and I am going to take care of kids after school this week so she can catch up. I cant explain in words the impact the retreat had on me spiritually. My wifes good friend and her husband came down on sat night as part of the retreat program. has no idea they were coming anyway I have a different outlook on my sitch and need to love my wife in a different way rt now. we see how it go's . IGIT
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Every once in awhile you have a day that gives you hope. Not sure if the 4 day away has something to do with this or not. My w reached out in a different way then she has in sometime. Maybe it was her attitude. She actually shared alot more of her day , her work and actually seemed like she wanted to share. Several txt and 3 or 4 phone calls as well. I didn't pursue but did throw out a nice compliment on her teaching. It was a good night as well.we did kids homework together. Small talk before bed.I felt like maybe the ice might be melting a little. I certainly don't want to get to excited but felt better about our R today.
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I appreciate the prayers. We LBS sure need all the help we can get. Yesterday was a good day. Today I worked late. Got home helped with kids, got them ready for bed. WAW was distant, Not as freindly as yesterday. Very cold! Seemed angry that I was taking kids to a concert next week. I don't know what I am supposed to act like. I am venting. I can't stand this. I know one thing for sure I won't be able to live here with her until June if things don't change soon.
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Journaling a little here. WAw was freindly today.we both have busy work schedules and have been helping each other out to accommodate schedule s with kids. Don't know what is going through her mind rt now. She gets angry at times because I am being super dad. Complaining I am too nice to her. I dont know what to think of that. Not bothering her, giving her space,just doing my own thing.Not sharing to much with her.no talk about the D. Haven't heard anything about it! My walk to Emmaus weekend really mellowed me out. Keeping the faith.
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WAW is stressing with her job. She has to take 30 hrs online for her teaching credentials by end of yr.she worked on this weekend and was giving me a bunch of trash talk about me going away last weekend for my walk to emmaus. I just let her vent. She then started on about D. I told her to figure out how she was going to stay at our home until june. I told her I wasn't going to live with her divorced and since I was getting kids to school she needed to figure it out. Also I mentioned I was going to tell 12d what has been going on with her affair.she was questioning why tell her. I told her she needed to know the truth. No more lies.anyway the next day she was much more freindly even came into put eye drops in my eye.called me at work and sending text about different things. Not sure what else I can do ar this point
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