#42. 50 is the new 40!

[kat727]

Thanks, BA. I was going to ask that. there is a job that just opened up today that is a bit different from what I do but includes some of the things I do on a daily basis. I was thinking, not actually the thing I want but if I get my foot in the door and hang in there I can become eligible for other federal jobs.

I so want room to grow and learn new things. I am not getting this here as I don't want to be a salesman or move to headquarters in St Louis.(I more than likely would not have my kids over the summer if I moved too far away).

So yep, I think I will twek my resume again and apply. The period closes next week to apply.

kat

[kat727]

I meant tweek. Oh and I think I would be working with more than one person, another bonus!!

[whatisis]

Kat, keep at it and you will succeed. Btw, so sorry about your sitch with your son. It's hard as a parent not to look at what our kids have done and feel somehow responsible...but, we did the best we could, taught them well but they are people who make their own choice, some good and some not so good. Hang in there...thinking of you!

[kat727]

I am trying to distance myself a bit and let this set. He know what I think. I know they are thinking they will keep the baby. This kid hasn't even made his eye dr appointment yet! I asked him to try to get in before school starts next week. He can be so responsible in some ways but not in others.

He hasn't even got a new job yet. He quit without telling me but at least he did give his two weeks. Then he got this surprise snd look at where he is. She had sharp pains in her side and passed out. Her dr told her to go to the er. This is when they found out. She is such a mess medically that she didn't know earlier.

They think they will move out in a few months, he thinks he will keep going to school...he hasn't a clue what a baby costs. Just because there is insurance for the birth doesn't mean there aren't co-pays plus the actual cost with diapers, clothes, daycare etc. I am going grater at the moment just thinking about it!

Thanks for your thoughts. Keep him in your prayers. My other kids don't get where I am coming from. He is my baby. I am wanting what is best for him. My kid, the one that I can see right now.

kat

[kat727]

Auto correct! Lol. Should have been grayer.

[JCJ]

Oh Kat, I'm sorry to read this has happened again. I know it isn't what you wanted for your son but you will have a lovely new addition to the family who I am sure you will just adore.

Happy belated birthday Elena!

You are a fantastic mother, these are his choices.

[kat727]

I had a bit if a rough spell yesterday. S18 knows that he is no where near ready to be on his own or support a family. We hade a bit of a lashing out but in the end he came to tell me that yes he was a kid and he needed me. He did admit that part of this was because he isn't his dad.

Kids wanting to play house. Doesn't make me feel warm and fuzzy.

kat

[Wet]

Hi Kat, I'm sorry that you had a rough day yesterday. It sounds like your s18 has his head screwed on straight, bc he knows he needs help. And better he knows he needs help from you. I think you are planting the right "seeds" (from your tagline) in your son's life to get this kind of response.

I hope that you have a great week. /s/Tom

[kat727]

We celebrated d14's birthday yesterday and that was fun. I am worried about parents on one end and my kids on the other. Gee, this can really get me. Funny today, my oldest says to me that it is so obvious how crazy my dad is about me.

Family...they bring so much joy and craziness.

kat

[mishka422]

Hugs sweetie! I'm on a quick fly by right now but I want you to know I'm thinking of you.