Getting close to the end!!

[Mach1]

What area ???

[willbwell]

kenva, I am sorry for your pain and the stage you are at. I too know how awful this situation is. Confronting om will do no good. of course ,we want people to realize the impact of their actions. Let Karma take care of that. You focus on being a great dad to your son. That will serve you much better.

[kenva]

Thanks Willbwell. One of the things w has told me is that I am there and do more with our s. Mach1 I live in hampton roads.

[kenva]

So guess who's moving out!!!! She is temp for 3 months. She says she can't live like this till we decide who takes house. So when she went into s room to put him to bed I worked my way upstairs for the evening and shouted out, "Yea". She then came out of the room and asked if I heard something and what it was. Told her I stubbed my toe.

[kenva]

I came home cause our s has a stomach bug. She had her car loaded w bags of clothes. She put on her jacket and said she would be back in a few hours. I walked around and noticed some things off the wall that she took. It's hard not to read into it so I'm trying not to. I think I'm going to ask her when she comes back if she needs help loading anything. Just to be nice and its something she wouldn't expect from me. Kinda weird cause I told her I would know in a couple of weeks about me refinancing the house or not. Anyway. Just another step till the end. I know and don't know how I am going to be starting fri how I will react to not having my s for a week even tho I get him tues night. It's a big and sudden change. I even said to her this morning that I wish she gave me a few days heads up on this move so I can mentally get ready not having my s around.

[kenva]

Wife just left with s to go to rental home. I kept a positive attitude and even offered to help her load but now, it's hit me.

[Mach1]

Just breathe....

Feel all of this right now, process it, and take a step away from it every day...

Let that feeling motivate you for the future...

It gets better, but only if you allow it to get better.

Every day that you are away from your Son, is one day closer to seeing him again....

Do you have anything lined up for tonite ? Some time just for you ??


I would say, fire up the grill, throw on some red meat, and enjoy the weather down there in Navy-land...

[kenva]

Still hard to swallow the reality. Just put a steak in the grill. Talked to my coach and he said to stay focused and keep my resentment level down. But all I wanted to say to her as she was walking out was to let her know how much pain she had brought to me and both our families. I didn't. I kept it together. I told her that I will go ahead and set up another co parenting appointment next week. She was good w that. The master bed room is empty w just furniture and I plan on moving back in there tomorrow. Just don't have the urge to do anything now. I am also going to take her wedding portrait down along w a few other pics of her. And while I'm at it. Move the family room furniture around. Hey. I got all weekend. And I am going to pop open a beer right now.

[lovethehub]

I'm sorry it came to this, even though we all know it doesn't have to mean the end, it is a hard step to go through. I'm thinking about you..

[kenva]

Thanks. I really appreciate it. I won't give up on DB. For some reason I have a little hope left in me. I am glad that some out there like u are piecing. I know it would be a lot of work. But I am ready for it. She just isn't. Thanks again.