giggle!! do you read cainer too? what sign are you?
it's uncanny most days what he says. would love to hear the extended one, but it's expensive!! i think we get it a bit earlier than you - 2 pm the afternoon before.
i read h's also - yes, yes i know - detachment! but i swear i read it because it guides me often to watch for what's coming.
if it's working for me, it must be for him in some way too. some days i'll have a raw crazy day and then go read it and it will blow my mind how on the spot it is.!!
of course i don't take it literally. what's interesting is that astrologers (the better ones at least imo) often ask questions - that, in their obscurity often help me to see something that i couldn't , or work through something that i needed to.
one of my favorites is Rob Brezny - it's actually quite brilliant, and so on the mark of what i'm dealing with it's crazy.
how you doing this fine day brit - hope you're great!
((( ))) zig
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
he had on these huge mirror glasses, and didn't take them off - i was in the back and he called me because he wanted me to know exactly how little s had eaten for lunch. i did walk up to him ready to have a relaxed conversation, but he kept those things on and all i could see was his lower face and the tension there - and i just walked back into the living room casually to get away.
we actually spoke to each other from those 2 positions for a minute more.he didn't step into the doorway - he usually does that. and i was like - okay full withdrawal again who cares.
his mustache is off and he's feeling too exposed - so today he's adopted the sunglasses like a wall.
i glanced out the window and saw him walking to his truck looking slightly defeated - his body language.
in that moment i actually really didn't want to be near him at all. not out of negative emotion, but out of the more positive emotion toward myself: this person is not good for my energy right now, i want to stay in my good space and his vibes are not matching up to mine, so it's better for me to move away.
i just felt sadness to see where he is - where he's keeping himself and where i don't need to be. i look forward to him finding out what it means to really love himself. i'm finding out what it means for me and it's very different than i thought it was.
keeping on directing the love to the right place
zig
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
We're the same sign my lovely! That's why I often giggle about the issues we have with out H's!
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i look forward to him finding out what it means to really love himself. i'm finding out what it means for me and it's very different than i thought it was.
I am coming to accept that for whatever reason he may not choose to find that for himself. I can't make that happen for him. I'm noticing small funny things like how I don't take my phone with me everywhere, rarely check social networking sites anymore, find myself lost in thought at how pretty my rose bushes look. Loving yourself comes in many forms.
don't tell me your h is a cancer, because then i'll [censored] a brick!! sorry that was crude - can't remember any more if that's an american term,or a british one or an indian one!!
by the way don't forget to read the one for gemini right now - it applies to us because jupiter - our planet just moved into gemini - it actually is very apt to us also.
i like what you said about loving ourselves comes in many forms - you're right - and to recognize each little one is the key to making us feel more whole and fill in that space - you know that space - i'm not saying, but everyone knows (grin)
well 15 mins after h left - i had to call him. s was supposed to check with him this morning about that damn fencing course and didn't. it starts in 3 hours.
i have to admit i was trying to pass it on to the 2 of them to decide - but the universe needed me to take care of it directly. so , i sighed, and picked up the phone.
it went pretty well- i stayed back, didn't push the issue and let h do all the circling with this that and the other reason - validated everything he said and just waited until he said it was okay.
what a friggin' dance!! in the end we came to a resolution together that we both agreed on. i asked him if he would like to tell s directly and he said no - you actually woke me up - i was taking a nap - 15 mins after he was here - admittedly his house is a couple of mins away - he must have left here, gone straight there and laid down. he said he had woken up at 4.30 and couldn't sleep - i know what that is - when we were together, he always did that when he was really stressed out. he started talking about other stuff, so i gently let him for a min and then said i had to go.
lately i've been noticing very strange little things in our conversations - always about s - he'll start ranting or insisting on s do it this way or that and why doesn't s get it, etc, i find myself thinking while he's saying that hmmm funny - does he not realize everyone else is thinking the same about him?
today it was more of the same- i really want s to join a team sport - i really wish it could be that way. and i thought to myself - well, i really wish you would come back, i wish it could be that way - but i just have to accept that you aren't. just like he has to accept that s doesn't enjoy it and him wanting it for s is more a reflection of himself than s. he said something about how joining a team sport would kill s. i just said gently, it wouldn't kill him, he'd just be overwhelmed by not being able to keep up. his response - i didn't mean literally.
can't help thinking - of what i read in the mlc stuff of how it feels to them as if they will literally die if they don't run. i swear if i didn't know better, i'd think he was talking about himself rather than s - that only in talking about s he can give me this info he needs to give me.
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
thanks ro - as usual though i quaked a little right after - but got myself back to feeling confident that what i was doing is right and i simply don't have to "work" the situation any longer - it's not my job
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
