"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Hi everyone....been busy getting ready for Christmas!
Last week I had a few ups and downs with my H. I let him know that every time he is down and withdraws from me that Im gonna assume he is changing his mind again about wanting to come home. He simply told me its bad to assume things.
This past weekend was a good one with him. He hangs around alot during the weekends with us. But he also takes the kids for a while for me to have some time to myself. He will be watching them again this coming weekend for me to go to a christmas party.
Things seem to be going ok for now.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Thanks Mishka....I hope you have a wonderful time at your parties!! Im going to one that the ladies at our church have every year....its so much fun and lots of goodies...I can see a good pound or two gained this weekend!! lol
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Oh boy...here we go again....after a good weekend and beginning of the week...we are back to the lows of depression again...This sucks soooo much! I hate dealing with it. And the thing is that he must think Im DUMB or something to not notice it!
I mean, yesterday he called me and was all in good spirits and talkative...then he decided to go and pull duty at the ems building....then it seemed all down hill from there....he was being short with me and getting an attitude....it was really ticking me off!! BUT, NOTHING was wrong from what he said...so, I was like ok....
then today on his fb it said ....expectations are usually followed by disappointments!
UGH! why cant I get this man to open up to me? Im not pushy about it or anything, but I hate being left to assume!
OK....just needed to vent.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Yeah, don't ASSume anything. You only end up feeling like those first 3 letters.
IMO, the ems building brings back too many memories of ow and that made him cross. You know it has nothing to do with you so let him wallow in it. He'll come out of it again when he's good and ready.
I forget, is he on any AD's?
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
no, he has been prescribed them, but hasnt taken them in over a year.
I know its just all a part of his depression.
His excuse usually to his posts on fb are that its just something that popped up in his head....no reason to them.
right! haha
Im good though!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Thanks guys. I somewhat agree. He is in a good mood today considering. His dad was put in the hospt yesterday and is having surgery today. He wont be home for christmas. He is kinda bummed about that. And worried for his dad. He isnt doing all that great.
I am kinda excited about Christmas though. His family has invited me over to their house on Christmas Eve. They all know he has asked to come back home. They have never been cross to me at all. Im sure they think Im stupid for entertaining the thought of taking him back.
I just have to remember to stand up for myself and my H on that matter.
Hope all my friends on here have a MErry Christmas and A Happy New Year!! Im sure i wont be on much till after the holidays are over. Hope you all remember the reason for the season!!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
