I can relate to your feelings on finding the porn on h's phone. It really bothers me too. Did you say anything to him?
As far as you starting a band, it sounds cool and exciting but your h may not see it that way. He is probably worried about it taking you away from the kids. Maybe when you finalize practice times, he'll feel better?
I have not said anything to him yet. I went to Wichita for a night, and when I got back, I didn't feel so weird with him, so I think the time away helped. I've told him before why it hurts my feelings, but I think he's figuring I have no idea he has them. What's really upsetting is that I've sent him pics of ME, and they are not there, just those disgusting ones of oversized boobies!
I watch the kids so much, I'm not sure how he would think this would take away too much time, unless it's more HE'S having to watch them more. They are hard to deal with sometimes, and kids can be stressful. So it's not like he doesn't want to be around them, but he lets them get to him too easily. But, your probably right. I'll see what happens after we start meeting.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
just found out that Jennifer's mom is getting a new form of chemo, lazerknife or something like that, it just spot treats it for 5 minutes so it doesn't do the whole body. Well, I guess she has the cancer all throughout her body except her brain, liver, and some other organs which I guess is rare for it not to go everywhere. She has also been drinking monavie and the doctor has encouraged her to use natural remedies which is awesome. They've only done the chemo on the two biggest lumps, her back and hip and they've reduced in size. She also had one under her breast and it's now 1/3 of the size (and they haven't even treated it! Go monavie!) So luckily things are going in the right direction! Thank you for the prayers!
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
Glad to hear that she is doing better! The woman who does my mom's hair sells monavie, too. They suggested it to my mom because of my anemia problems. Maybe I will give it a try. Shame I cannot give it to H to make him nicer to me. SIGH
SMW
M40/H36 T16/M14 4K B2/08 S4/08 current
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
haha smw, that's funny! you know, a lot of people find that it helps with depression. So, ya never know!! lol
and hey, if you wanna try it, let me send you a bottle! unless your moms hairdresser is a really good friend. It helps me when people buy it under me, or from me, but I don't like to step inbetween people if there is a family member or good friend that they know. But I would pay for your signup fee if you really wanted to try it, then you can get it wholesale yourself. You've helped me so much, you've been such an inspiration to all of us here.
you know, I started thinking about the whole pictures on his phone deal. Sometimes I think that maybe I should give it to God, but I've also thought that we never had good communication, and I would get bitter about stuff, and maybe this is an opportunity for me to learn how to communicate better about things that are important to me.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
SMW...I think we talked on the phone after this right? Did you get your answer that you needed?
---------------- Well, I'm getting closer to my band...as I have a drummer, a guitarist, another possible guitarist and bass player! yea! I'm really excited, except just found out I'll need to get a PA, or equipment that will allow my voice and keyboard to be heard, so that might not be cheap. darn!
happy Holy-ween everyone! that's what our church is calling it, we'll be doing a fun carnival like thing there tomorrow. fun fun!
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
3. Growing old is inevitable . growing UP is optional.
4. There is no key to happiness. The door is always open.
5. Silence is often misinterpreted but never misquoted.
6. Do the math. count your blessings.
7. Faith is the ability to not panic.
8. Laugh every day, it's like inner jogging.
9. If you worry, you didn't pray. If you pray, don't worry.
10. As a child of God, prayer is kind of like calling home everyday.
11. Blessed are the flexible for they shall not be bent out of shape.
12. The most important things in your house are the people.
13. When we get tangled up in our problems, be still.
God wants us to be still so He can untangle the knot.
14. A grudge is a heavy thing to carry.
15. He who dies with the most toys is still dead.
(someone emailed this to me, thought it was applicable!)
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
I kind of figured I was long overdue for a visit over here. You make frequent stops to mine and so many other threads and just so I just did not want to drag my feet on coming over here to your little corner of the board.
Howz the keyboard playing band stuff progressing?
I'll be thinking of you if I get around to watching any Steelers action this w/e (I think they are playing somebody).
On another note ... I will add to your list of those in critical medical states, a 20 year neighbor of my folks. SHe is a 65ish old wife and mother who never smoked but managed to get what started off as lung cancer and has now spread throught her whole body and her brain. I talked to her H the other day when I hasd the oportunity. I did not want to pass on the chance to let him know I was thinking and praying for them.
Gotta go fly. Be well and do as the Lord instructs.
Thank you T, I appreciate you stopping by! I don't get many, but I love the few that I get!
the band is still progressing... I'm printing out chord sheets for popular songs from Air One( the christian rock station) so that we can all play something we're familiar with and learn to blend as a band. I'm just hoping they all like the songs I've written! and that they fit with what we are hoping to do. I do need to find some things first, like speakers and stuff, so that will cost me some money, hopefully I can find some used stuff.
on your neighbor, that is sad to hear, especially when she never smoked. My moms neighbor of 74, also had lung cancer and never smoked. It was his second bout of cancer in fact, but he is doing so remarkably now and the doctors have been incredibly impressed and told him whatever you are doing, don't stop doing it! Well, he's been drinking the monavie. It really does fight cancer, (the acai berry was studied to cause a selfdestruct in 86% leukemia cells) and it boosts the immune system which is such a good thing while going thru chemo. I would love for her to try it, so if you'd like to share that with her, let me know what she says. I will also pray for her too, as I know God brings about miracles every day.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
