I know, I probably should try a class. I was doing so well with the p90x videos, I did them 5xs a week for about a month, and they were the hardest things ever! but I went somewhere, and when I came back, I just never got back into it. The problem was, I was eating more to compensate for all the work I was doing, but then I didn't compensate my food back down.
I do have a membership to a gym, but I really feel like I have no time at all. I really don't want to give up being on here, but this is what I do in my spare time. I think I need to be better scheduled. I'm just not a schedule kind of person, as I like to do things when I want to do them. but perhaps God is trying to teach me something and trying to get me to be more responsible with my time. ?????
well, I was very upset with H today, as he was suppose to come back a day or two later from me so he could visit more friends, and come back in time to coach the soccer game. Well, guess what. I knew something would happen, and maybe I didn't put enough faith in him, but he ends up getting up late (which would have put him at the game just before it started) and locked his keys in the car. He would NEVER do that. He's just not dingy like that. The whole time we were gone I kept mentioning, you'll be there for the game right? I do not want to coach the game. and he said he would, but he never really wanted to.
so, we had a little fight, cause he was mad that he'd have to pay $50 bucks, and I wasn't totally acting like I believed him. I mean really, it seems awefully convenient, and how would I know otherwise?!? well, it was true, and he finally got here 5 hours later, bought some steaks, and mowed the lawn. So, I can't stay mad at him forever. I did tell him I was extremely disappointed when I found out.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
Here is something I received from my business team. It is really good.
"When your reasons to move forward outweigh your excuses for staying put, you will move forward. When your thirst for success is more powerful than the desire to stay within your comfort zone, you will succeed.
When the reward is meaningful enough, you will act. When you connect your deepest purpose with the goals you set, those goals will be achieved.
When you understand that there is a real and accessible pathway to the most magnificent dreams you can dream, you?ll get yourself on the path. When you know without a doubt that every action has a consequence, you?ll focus all your actions in a positive and valuable direction.
When you love what you do, you?ll do it with grace and ease and excellence. When you do what you love, you?ll provide a steady stream of unique and extraordinary gifts to life.
When you are completely clear about your why, you?ll be able to figure out how. When you let go of the need to need, you?ll fall into a massive sea of beautiful abundance.
When you are ready, life is here to fully live. Choose it, and now is when."
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
Hey sissy, omg what is going on with our football team? UGH!! I wanna cry already LOL!
Saw the movie, think I need to TALK to you to figure it out,thats what weekdays are for right? thank you for coming to see me, not only for the juice, but I felt good, thank you!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
hey your welcome! you should be about out of the juice too, I hate for you to run out, otherwise it's like starting all over again, but whatever you'd like to do, just let me know. I left some at my moms just in case.
ya, I do want to hear how the movie thing went. not sure if I'll have MY H go, but smw told me to pray, and that's what I should do.
oh, the team?!? ya, again, James thankfully refrained from his obscenities, but boy did he wish we were all gone so he could! at least they still pulled a win though. ugh! you woulda been proud though, we all sported our steeler stuff! now, we just need to get the dog a jersey!
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
“Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.”
1 Corinthians 13:6 (NIV)
Devotion:
A few years ago, I sat with a beautiful young woman and watched the tears stream down her face. Six months before our meeting, her world was filled with so much – a loving husband, a healthy toddler, and fun friends.
Life was full.
But some part of her heart still felt restless, unsettled, and a little empty.
She started to feel detached from her husband and disappointed in their relationship. Why couldn't he make her feel loved? Wasn’t he supposed to right her wrongs, fill up her insecurities, and give her a lasting feeling of love?
Then one day she met a man who said things she'd longed to hear her husband say. He made her feel pretty and witty. Soon, she rationalized that she'd never really loved her husband in the first place. A web of lies was spun. She fell into the arms of the other man.
She had not wanted to come to the women's retreat. She knew it might make her feel guilty and she was past having any guilty feelings. She was just waiting for the right time to leave her husband and start over with the new love of her life. But her friends had started to grow suspicious of her pulling back from so many church activities. So, to appease them, she went.
Over the course of the weekend, the walls she'd so carefully constructed to keep everyone at a distance and her secret safe started to crumble. By Saturday night, she sat down with me and confessed her affair. She desperately wanted to know how I felt so full of God's love. She was now convinced it wasn't the love of another man her heart craved; it was the love of God.
Chasing love outside the will of God invites the exact opposite of love into our lives. 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8 is picture of God's perfect love. It is patient. It is kind. It does not envy... it is not self-seeking... it does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth... it always protects... it always perseveres. Love never fails. The things we chase in this world are opposite from God's love. False attempts at love will make us impatient, unkind, envious, self-seeking, resistant to the truth, reckless and temporary.
1 Corinthians 13 is not a description of what is inherently ours when we fall in love with another person. It is a description of God's love. This kind of love can be ours as we become more Christ-like. It is never focused inwardly. It is never about what I'm going to get from another person. It is deciding that this is the kind of love I will give away.
I am challenged by this. Because our souls were designed for God's fulfilling love, if we aren't staying closely connected to Him everyday, our hearts will start to feel empty. Restless. Unfulfilled.
Let us never get to the place where we think we are strong enough to not be tempted in this way. If we are all completely honest, we are only a few bad decisions away from the same kind of mess my sweet friend is now trying to untangle herself from. While I have complete hope in God's ability to restore her, the consequences of her chase for love will be severe on many levels.
The kind of love our souls crave will never be found in the things of this world. Lasting and perfectly satisfying love will only be found when we stop chasing the wrong kind of love and start living out the truths of God.
Dear Lord, help me rest in the security of Your love. Make me wise in how I guard my heart. May I never get lured into any kind of worldly, fake love. But if I ever start to get drawn away, God surround me with people who are bold enough to speak truth into my life. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
Thank you for sharing, Crissy. You are right, we are all just a few steps away from our own fall from grace. Only through continual reaffirmation of our love for the Lord are we able to walk in faith and grace.
SMW
M40/H36 T16/M14 4K B2/08 S4/08 current
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
thanks SMW, I got that in an email, and thought I had to share it.
so, I haven't posted my own stuff recently, mostly because nothing much happens.
well, I saw H's phone sitting out and thought, ug, okay just gonna look at it. Well, he had all these naked girls pictures on there, and they ALL had boobs the size of mount rushmore. It really made me sick to my stomach. I know that some wives don't care if their H's look at porn or playgirl or whatever, but it really makes me feel bad. I keep wondering if this is something I just need to give to God and pray about it and pray for my H, or if I should say anything. It's been almost a week now since I saw them, and for the last few days, I've been kinda distant, or just annoyed by my H, and I think that might be why. Especially yest for some reason. I really couldn't figure out why I was so annoyed by him. He even asked what was my deal and where the attitude came from. It wasn't like a really rude attitude, but I was being rude/playful.
Soooo, I am wondering if I should bring it up YET again. I'm not really sure what else I would say, because I've said it before when he was paying for porn online. You know, if he would compliment me and treat me like I'm beautiful, then i probably wouldn't care so much, but he doesn't, never really did either, always said that wasn't his style, but when I remember that darned text that he sent to OW about how she was gorgeous, a word he's NEVER come close to describing me, not even beautiful, so it's hard not to feel less attractive.
okay, gotta go take kids, I'll be back.....
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
You know what I am going to tell you, right? You have to let it go and give it to God. He will deal with your husband on this in His time. God brought him home, God will take care of this, too.
{{{{{HUGS}}}}}
SMW
M40/H36 T16/M14 4K B2/08 S4/08 current
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
So do you think I shouldn't even say anything? I mean, even just apologizing for being weird lately because I had seen the pictures on your phone and it just hurt my feelings or something?
I had kinda decided today that I should probably say something, because I still feel weird towards him. Although strangely, last night he actually grabbed me to lay beside him, which he hasn't done in a while, and today after work while I was cooking he started groping me. which ALSO hasn't happened in a while, and it did totally turn me on, but sometimes just looking at him makes me feel weird. It's hard to explain. I was actually kinda sick to my stomach for a while, so I used it to my benefit as I was trying to lose some weight again, hahah! I know isn't that a little twisted? yes, I'm weird.
okay, gotta go wipe a bottom. s4, not my H. haha
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
well, thought maybe I'd get some action last night lol, but yest morn we found a 4 wk old kitten right by our garage and so she slept on me all night. My boxer is going crazy over it too. Then we have a stray dog hanging out on my porch. so crazy.
anyways, I'll post some positives today instead.
I'm going to Wichita to have a fun MV party, and I Baby might be there too! We're gonna just throw a real party afterwards, have no idea what we'll do, but my mom has a good sized basement with a pooltable, so we'll figure somethin out!
Then, I am starting a band! I've got a drummer, and we're still looking for possible bassist and guitarist, but we plan on meeting Nov 15 to see what we can do. He sounds like he's on track with his faith, bout the same age as me, and interested in close to the same music, so it should be good. We're looking for an evanescence/fireflight type of sound, alternative/rock, so I'm really excited. My H is not however.
I asked him why he didn't seem very happy for me and he said because he thinks if I'm really making a band, we'll be practicing 2-3 times a week, and I said, nuhuh, not gonna do that, maybe once a week. I said, it depends how good you are anyways, some people don't need much practice. Hopefully, that will be me. lol so, I don't know why he's not excited for me, unless he's maybe a little jealous, or it really is because I'll be gone more.
But wouldn't that be cool to have your wife in a band??? I would think so. oh well, I'll just have to act as if, and make sure I'm not abusing the time I spend. I'll probably have to spend less time on here, which I have been doing a little. It's just so hard to catch up with everyone if you've been away for more than a couple days.
well, I plan on making this a better day today....
oh, please say prayers for two people,
1. Amber, who is 25 and never had problems, but went in to doc because of sickness, and now they say she has leukemia!
2. mother of Jennifer (a mom of a child a bbsit for) just found out she has cancer throughout her body.
I gave both of them some mv because of the fighting power it has on cancer cells and hopefully they will have the desire to drink it, and I'm praying for miracles. I couldn't imagine being 25 and finding out I had leukemia. They were trying to have a baby too even.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
which ALSO hasn't happened in a while, and it did totally turn me on, but sometimes just looking at him makes me feel weird. It's hard to explain. I was actually kinda sick to my stomach for a while, so I used it to my benefit as I was trying to lose some weight again, hahah! I know isn't that a little twisted? yes, I'm weird. 
s4, not my H. haha