so LL's h loves her even though she's a naked ranting lunatic!!! ha ha ha!! at least I can laugh at myself..
well the reason for this post is a possitive one... h just called...letting me know he was not able to reschedule his 5:30 appointment and therefore won't be home til 6:30 son asked to talk to him...did so..told him he was busy putting rocks in his wheelbarrow...crazy kid..anyway..h said to son..ILY son says to daddy..ILY too and then promtly tossed the phone to me..h then laghed at son running off the phone with his ily...then h says to me..ily too LL...aw...
so now LL is happy...of course she will still be dissapointed tonight if there is no lovin' goin' on but after last nights performance I wont count on it!!
LL, Thanks for always posting such great replies on my thread! I have to tell you, I can totally relate to your "wishing" thread! Isn't it amazing the thoughts and feelings we have when we finally have what we wanted in the beginning? What's the deal??
I, too, appologize for my emotions. I think it's because we don't want our H's to think that we are going back to the way they thought we were when they left? We are allowed to have emotions, all of them, happy, sad, angry, etc. But I think we are scared to show them, and get upset when we do.
Quote: But I think we are scared to show them, and get upset when we do.
scared to show the fear, the doubt, the pain....scared to show them because at different times am met with different reactions. sometimes comfort and reasurrance is given...sometimes the "get over it" attitude seeps through and further builds my scared feelings...ugh!!!
anyway...have to keep reminding myself what I said to h during seperation...his r with ow doesn't matter..it's not important...what is important is what we have and can have...can't dwell on what was...have to look toward what can be..my harping on these ill feelings is keeping us from having the what could be!!
thing is during seperation I didn't know the whole truth about the friendship...at that point I was led to believe they were just good aquantances..that he spoke to her occassionally and they went out to lunch a few times....I didn't learn how much time they actually spent together until h came home...has made a bit of a difference in how I view that r...but then again I have to remind myself of the fact that h volunteered the extra info..he could have said nothing...it just added to the deciet but at least he did come clean with it...but I must admit it keeps me wondering what other mistruths are there yet to be told???
ah hell LL get over it...h is home...ow is gone...hopefully ow will d her h..sell her house and move away far far away...like maybe the planet looseroid!! but I digress...h is home..h is trying...give him a break and let him make it up to you in his time in his way..patience will get you what it is you want..stomping your feet and demanding to be satiated right now isn't going to make it happen any sooner infact you will have to wait longer...so chill lady chill!!!
Quote: I was in stiches during my last book club meeting when somehow the conversation became about farting. no I am not crass I just had a pull my finger dad and I happen to find farts funny.
A lot of farting and f****** going on here!!!!!!
T ny
PS; LL, I'm still reading, I hope this isn't the one you wanted to take a cold shower over!
To be honest I was going to post on your thread about MY stupid feelings over XOW. My fears. Then I read your wishing post..... It's so hard. My H called this morning and I would have gladly talked to him for 30 minutes or soooo.. But you know what he called, he was sweet. I think they want to forget what happened. My H told me some things he said there was more to say but that I couldn't handle it. He's right!! It doesn't make anything easier. But LL they are with US and they are being good daddy's they are trying to meet our needs. I'd love to be in a book club.
Kip
"Those who don't read, have no
advantage over those who can't"
Mark Twain
I started the book club myself over the summer (during the seperation) you can call your local library and see if there is already one...I posted interest on my towns yahoo group site and that is where I started with members..your town may have a yahoo group site...but if not I'm sure your local library would be able to direct you to a group or help you to start one yourself...it is a lot of fun.
So what books have you read in the group. Not too many about flautlence out there
the book we had read (the lovely bones by alice sebold) had nothing to do with farts at all, our conversations just go from here to there to there till sometimes we say how did we end up talking about this??? the fart conversation somehow came up during a conversation about learning disorders...someone had a kid in school with them at one time who had a gastro intestinal problem that they took advantage of forcing farts at a whim causing a commotion in class...the topic certainly caused a commotion in our discussion group...imagine a group of seemingly intelligent adults in tears with uncontrollable laughter over the talk of farts...even the prude who argues with her h over his farting and claims not to fart herself let out a chuckle...I of course was in tears laughing. the book club is fun but I gotta tell ya...we seem to spend about 15 min actually talking about the book and the rest of the time we just get led from one topic to another me the supposed leader always saying "did we talk enough about the book" " does anyone have anymore to say about the book" I just don't want anyone to leave thinking...well that was fun..but I thought this was a book discussion group...they all seem to have fun so maybe I should just relax..if they want to talk more about the book they are grown ups and will speak up themselves!!
Quote: LL, He said "I Love You"? Haven't you been waiting to hear that???
yup!! suppose maybe I'd be happier about it if it were not an after thought...he tells son every day that he loves him..maybe he just felt bad because after all he was talking to me about the interaction with son over the ily statement. but then I know he doesn't want to say it all the time because when he did (pre crap) it started to get stale...every phone conversation automatically ended with ily...though I'd like to hear it more...it is better this way.
Quote: Enjoy the moment...try (grrrrrr!) not to attach any expectations to it.
didn't and was better off not to have expected anything... !
Quote: That's what I'm trying to do about my upcoming getaway WITH my H...
good call, glad to hear you are going away..you need it...but again no expectations...h and I went away on a ski trip..one evening I scheduled massages for each of us...then filled the jacuzzi tub invited h in...then took a shower together then was dismayed at the fact that h got out and got dressed for dinner..went to dinner...had a few drinks..I opted to skip playing pool to get to the cuddling sooner..but again was dismayed when upon returning to the room..h put the tv on and started to snore!!! ugh!!! kinda blew the whole day away...but I suppose I should have just been happy that he was with me. took time off work..arrainged for someone else to take care of snow plowing...did get in the tub...did shave my legs...so I didn't get any that night...oh well!!
anyway!! hope you have a great time...I'm once again having easter at my house..I'm a little nervous about the day...don't know how I'll feel about it..as it was last easter when after cleaning everything up h said to me "I don't think I can do this anymore" and three days later moved out!! I doubt that's gonna happen this year but the memory is still fresh!
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