and I agree - be braver than us and don't look over your shoulder to see if he's following
Here's to you, dear sweet strong friend. It was more than you should have had to do but I think what you got in return was unexpected - the empowering feeling that you were really going to be not just okay, but wonderfully okay
((((((((( )))))))))) zig
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
I especially love this: I am not going to live in reaction to H. He chooses to live in a dark place and I choose not too. I realized this is MY life and I get to choose how I live it.
This is so different to where you were a couple of weeks ago. Sometimes I think we have to push through a really hard bit to get to the next stage. Like mining for that prize diamond.
Can't wait for more stories like this
ME41 H39 T12 M9 Ilybinilwy 10/2010 H moves out 11/2010 H moves in 09/2011 out 11/2011 Try to fix it alone, give up 07/2012 Tumbling to file 02/01/2013 :-) "Strong on the inside, soft on the outside"
zig, I love seeing posts from you again :-) (((((( )))))
Thank you for your words of support and encouragement.
I need to keep rereading my post to remember that feeling of empowerment I felt. To continue to be brave. To not look back.
As for it was more than I should have had to do, there was also a sense of this is MY life. Where I live. I shouldn't have to sulk around in my own town because of her. I am not the one who should feel like I want to hide.
Anyway, this all is good in print. It is slowly taking root from within. I want to nurture this now.
I have a lot of compassion for H. Sometimes I just want to reach out to him as a friend, one human bring to another. I know I cannot now..and maybe never. I am trying to keep my focus on his core. Not on what he manifests himself to be right now.
I am talking to my coach tomorrow. Am looking forward.
love you zig. Come back to the blanket, ok? I believe in you.
((((( )))))
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
I really appreciate that. We get to a stage, to find another is waiting for us. It can be exciting. My focus is to make sure this takes root!
p.s. Maybe going commando IS the key! lol
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
i had a taste of going commando today! arrived at the gym, in my swimsuit, swam for an hour came out got showered - prepared to dress - NO UNDERWEAR in my rush to go out I hadn't packed my bag properly. I wonder if it was subconscious or a message from the universe!?:)
Lol Tumbling! A message from the universe for sure! :-) lol
Grateful...its all about victoria's secret! lol
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
