Thanks, guys! Blood work and tumor markers are normal and physical exam yielded no lump or bumps! I am 3.5 years out of diagnosis now and for my type of cancer this is great news.
Mimi
M:37; H:37; M:10 years;T:13 years;no kids. Bomb ("I love you, but don't feel things for you I should":1/08/12 Separated (H living with various friends:1/18/12 Separated (H rented his own apartment:3/4/12
So happy to hear about your good health news! Also, wanted you to know that I feel inspired by your posts. Thank you for your honesty and openness about ll the feelings that come with this strange journey!
Me:51 W:41 T:10 Domestic partners and M:7 Bomb:7/11 S:10/11 much back and forth W decides to move cross country: 2/12
Me(f): 51 W: 41 DP:8 M:3 T:10 "W not happy" 7/11 D final: 8/13
Thank you so much for the good wishes! I am very relieved at my health news and want to let that joy help me through this sitch.
Well, right now I am feeling an even more urgent need to distance myself and detach. H is still as confused as ever about our m and doesn't have much hope for it. It is looking as bleak as ever for us, and I find myself alternately OK with getting on with things without him, and horribly angry at how he has blown up our life. What I AM getting good at is staying dignified and calm in his presence -- even if I tear down all the pictures of him after he leaves (something I did on Wednesday night).
I am still happy in my GAL activities. They have really saved my life. It's a strange thing, but I can have happiness and heartache at the same time. I think this is progress, because before it was just heartache. I feel a deep pain to think of him just disappearing from my life and floating off into the ether. I also feel a great excitement about the independent life I am building and the person I am becoming through this.
I have taken the day off work today and plan to clean my house, continue with my fashion books and closet clearing. Needing to make more room in my life for what I want out of it.
Mimi
M:37; H:37; M:10 years;T:13 years;no kids. Bomb ("I love you, but don't feel things for you I should":1/08/12 Separated (H living with various friends:1/18/12 Separated (H rented his own apartment:3/4/12
