Spent the last several hours reorganizing the kitchen, changing the home office, getting all the books back in order...as I was finishing, it hit me that nobody else was going to come home and walk in the door. That put me in a somber state of mind at that moment.
I'm not sure what I miss; certainly not the person my W has become, and maybe not even the person my W used to be. I suppose I miss someone walking in the door, giving me a nice hug and kiss and being very happy to see me.
Even the dogs are melancholy; they seem to know something is very different. They also are at my feet constantly now, as if they are afraid I'm going to leave, also.
W had come by the house earlier to get more of her things; I was at work but technically it is still "our house" so I didn't have an issue with that. But this evening I noticed more items are gone. Silly things like a $5 clock that was in my bathroom, a small wooden box that I thought had no sentimental value at all and-this is the most peculiar-all of the kitchen spices, even the half-empty containers.
I'm not angry at all about it, just bemused.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
I know what you mean telemark about missing someone walking in the door and feeling sad when the reality of being on your own hits and there isn't anything you can do abut it.
