I love what you just said. You have grown so much through this adversity.
I too have finally got to that same place, after he stood up in court and did not tell the truth to the judge. That was lower than low, and finally came to the realization that he is not someone I want in my life at this time.
It never seems to end with them does it... I have come to the place where I can't even look at him now when he comes home.
On a lighter note...
A friend of mine enlightened me to a website called Plenty of Fish. I have been doing a little window shopping. It reminds me that there just might be someone out there that is worthy of my love. And me his.
Just a thought.
I have been following along quietly. I'm in your corner girl. Can't you hear all the cheering going on over here? And the hissing for him when he's spewing his selfish behaviour at you.
I am no longer that scared little girl who signed up here 6 months ago...
I am no longer weak...
I am no longer stupid nor naive...
I am no longer blinded by "love", I am fueled by protecting myself and my children...
I no longer put him before anything...
I no longer care what he is doing, saying or screwing...
I finally got to the point where I want life to feel great and I want to breath again....
I want to feel like I am home...
I want to love like I know how and I want to see beyond the blurr in my eyes...
I am finally past the point of being a wilted flower hiding in the shadows...
I am ready to be a full blooming flower standing tall in the sunshine.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
I am always in your corner and wish you nothing but the best in whatever it is you decide to do...
I never knew how much I have grown until Coach challenged me by asking me that question...
Then it all came out...
No tears...
Nothing...
I truly don't care about him anymore...
It is one thing to be hateful to me however by throwing our boys into the mix, something inside me came alive for my boys and something inside me died for him...
I am here if you need anything...
I wish you a Merry Christmas and a wonderful New Blessed Year.
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
No, you aren't going to call. If he does call you are too busy to take it right now.
He's going to test your boundary. You will not match emotions with him.
Post this on your mirror:
Quote:
Because I have grown...
I am no longer that scared little girl who signed up here 6 months ago...
I am no longer weak...
I am no longer stupid nor naive...
I am no longer blinded by "love", I am fueled by protecting myself and my children...
I no longer put him before anything...
I no longer care what he is doing, saying or screwing...
I finally got to the point where I want life to feel great and I want to breath again....
I want to feel like I am home...
I want to love like I know how and I want to see beyond the blurr in my eyes...
I am finally past the point of being a wilted flower hiding in the shadows...
I am ready to be a full blooming flower standing tall in the sunshine.
Feels good to stand up for yourself. Stay very aware right now. Be prepared.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
