Over the past few months I have had on and off stomach problems and thought that my discomfort was either from my over indulgence of the hot and spicy foods that I really love or an ulcer that was completely stressed-related for going through the hell that I have gone through over the past year.
Well If only I was to be so lucky...
After a ton of tests and and lastly a biopsy a week ago..I spent yesterday with a oncologist and has diagnosed me with gastric lymphomas. So that means stomach cancer...
The outlook and prognosis “possibilities” are 50/50 response to chemotherapy after surgery. That an average of 12 months of life could be achieved, or even as short as 6 months.
The chances of complete remission are more remote and less then 1-2% for total recovery and this all depends on surgery, chemo and how far it's really progressed after surgery. I am scheduled for surgery next week.
He strongly advised me to make prime directives and make my life plans accordingly right now.
So now I am faced the reality of all this and telling this to my immediate family, my two young children who are 2 and 6 and finally the x-wife from hell. I am only 36 and facing the reality that I could be dead in 12 months or even shorter. No one has any idea of this as I did not want to alarm anyone.
I am overwhelmed with a fury of emotions, anger, sadness, hopelessness and in tears since yesterday and extremely depressed knowing that I am literally “alone” in my shortened life now.
quote: PLEASE I ask for all and everyone's prayers in explaining this to my family tomorrow. I have no contact order with my X, so I am preparing a fax to send to her attorney Monday. I would have preferred to meet with her and explain face to face but that is not possible. I guess I can only beg and plead that that she let me see the children as much as possible now, more then ever...under the circumstances...I hope she has a heart somewhere buried in her...
LD, Oh my God...I don't know what to say except you are in my prayers. I can't believe after all that has happened...now this. I pray she can find enough compassion in her heart to allow you to see the kids. This is such a shock. Call me if I can do anything. GG
I pray for your children that they will know how concerned you are for their future, almost more than your own. I pray that your XW can open her heart to be there for you and her children. I pray for God to give you strength and peace along with a good prognosis in surgery.
LD This must really be difficult. I don't know what your religious beliefs are. If you are looking for verifiable evidence that the Bible and its promises of a resurrection are true, please email me at EBTon3@aol.com. Blair
Sending you a hug. I will pray for you and your family. Please remember we are here and will "talk" anytime you want. There is always someone awake on the board. Keep us informed and try not to hold everything inside. Gail
"Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good." Hopeful
