"You swing between being down because of her treatment and being calm & collected when you think of yourself. I love the attitude of the second mutatio."
Thank you roiste, I like the second mutatio better also. I love this woman so deeply and thoroughly that I am deluding myself and most likely hanging onto false hope. I am sacred to death of this outcome but will keep trying and see it through.
Turtle won the race, M. You're being true to yourself and believe. You're an inspiration to those of us who have trouble with patience. I'm still rooting for you!
M, I am sorry, if you need to know what is going on with her, ask here and we can role play it for you. We can make you glad you didn't ask in real life.
Mutatio, you are an awesome man. Your W knows this. Whatever she us going through, is hers to deal with. You are an innocent bystander on some of this. We all have played a part in the states of our M, but remember that some of this is completely out of your control. Try to not take it personally. I know that is tough, it's your W we are talking about. But, if she is angry or depressed, you may just be an easy target for it. May not be at all your fault.
I may be way off base here. Not sure. But that is some advice that I have to remind myself of. I went through sepression, and my W caught the brunt of it. So, I know first hand.
Be strong, you are a great guy
35 3 boys Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....
I truly understand the pain of loving someone and getting nothing in return. I'm so sorry it's happening to you. You are truly awesome, and such a great example for the rest of us. It's my greatest wish for you that your W will appreciate all you've done to hang in there and hold your M together. I wish my H had even the tiniest portion of the commitment you've shown. I'm not sure your W deserves you, but as long as she is what you want most in this world, I will be right here for you - cheering you on.
Thank you dear friends. I spoke with her about the dog and if he should go to the vet. Not one word about our relationship. It was a pleasant discussion. She looked so beautiful. She is my kryptonite.
Brother, you and I live in the same house just miles apart. Someone asked me last week if my W had some kind of spell on me. I think she might.
I understand what you are saying about kryptonite Mutatio, and that's what makes this the hardest. The most gut wrenching. What will (censored) your life up on every level.
As someone who spent years courting his wife, got dumped by her twice before being M'ed, and still holds on to the belief that we haven't finished our lives together just yet, I feel you. There is nothing like the pain of butting up against your strongest belief.
All I can offer is what I am choosing to believe. That either we will end up together some way, or that my greatest lesson in life will come from learning to live without her. That I will experience a pain so great that I will be able to look at someone else that is hurting and know exactly what they are going through - and be able to speak comfort to them as an equal.
You my friend have the heart of an artist and the soul of a wise traveler. You love deeply, speak wisely and even from the little you type are it is apparent that you are a healer in some manner. Your words cut through all of the BS in threads in an instant.
I'm sorry you are in pain Mutatio, I bear witness to your suffering and pray that it is transforming you in a capacity that hasn't been shown to you yet. I just can't believe in a world where a man that speaks the way you do is being tested for no reason.
You may move far away, and you may only seek comfort in the companionship of a dog. But where ever you go, that place will be blessed by a sage.
Stay strong. Everyone suffers in some capacity. Everyone has battles and a great test. This is yours. And you are passing it with grace.
PP
M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17
