H's MLC #5

[woundedfool]

I hope I have not shared too much here on the forum, hope I did not offend anyone.

Aside from: we are all adults here, dealing with adult subjects....

But that is one benefit of the anonymity we have here, you are able to speak freely, without worry of repercussion.

So no, I don't feel you are over-sharing at all.

[job]

At least you can put to rest the regular STDs and you are healthy. I don't think you've offended anyone here. Since I am an old timer, I have seen posters come here to vent, cry and hash out their situations, especially getting STDs and we did have one poster a long time ago have the HIV scare. This is real life stuff and sometimes you need a sounding board to work things out.

Your h may never hold it against you because he certainly isn't acting like someone who is climbing the walls about it.

I know it's going to be on your mind for a while, but you shouldn't allow this to swallow you up. It doesn't make the "whole" you. It's a blip on the radar screen and now that you know about it, you've educated yourself on the issue and can go on from there. Live your life, enjoy your life and if something does happen, you can deal w/it at that time.

Okay?

[2BHappy]

This board is great.
Talked to H again about convo my reg GYNO Dr had with me, H said "Dr said bascially same thing I told you" H told me I worry way too much.

I ask H, what if you dont have it knowing that I do. H said he is not worried about it and like Dr said we will avoid sex IF I ever have any outbreaks.

WOW,,,that sounded like a H I use to know? Calm and clear headed.

So between my reg DR, My H and you guys on this board,,,I was able to get my emotions under control and look clearly at the situation.

Of course I dont want this, and I will stop trying to figure out who gave it to me, DR said at this point no way to know and does it really matter...

I ask H if he would be upset if he test negative, he said NO, I know you would not have passed it onto me if you knew you had it. He said he knew we both have had unprotected sex with others before we got together.

[Mighty]

2B... your posts have stirred up a lot of emotion in me. Some that I think I have been avoiding. I'm sorry to hear of your sitch, but it seems like it is going to work out for you. That's good. Just another bump in the road. Keep on trucking, girl. It sounds like you are handling things well.

[2BHappy]

Mighty

It was HARD to share this information. I hope it helped someone, even though this may not really have anything to do with my DB situation, cause no telling when I contracted the virus,
but now Im feeling like it means something else to worry about if my M does not get better.

[job]

Don't look too far beyond today. Live in the present and allow the future to unfold in its own time. Okay?

[CaliGuy]

2BHappy

I have read and learned MORE than I ever would like to have had on this subject. W contracted H1 vaginally qith OM, her immune system is weak, during all this I rushed to get tested as OM has been a "friend for 4 years" and I was not going to trust when he and her decided to play around.

I will say, you can manage this, look into your diet as well... diet and stress will effect this, the fact you have not had an outbreak .. thats a huge positive.

You will get through this ... dont stress, ... its just another obstacle.

[2BHappy]

Job ...I agree I need to stay in the present... not worry on what if in the future.

Caliguy...Im trying to manage my stress. My diet is out of control...thank god no outbreaks.

[Mighty]

2B,

Yup, it was HARD for me too. Although it was something different, and I had no signs, it can become quite serious. I have surgery coming up next month. I hate to think about it and take off work because I do know it came from xh- my H at the time!!!

But I had the same concern as you.. how will this affect me in the future? I feel like I still have a lot of life left in me, as I am sure you do too. I am 37 and will be an empty nester in 5 years. I don't want my life to be over because of the mistakes my xh has made.

I guess that's where the work comes in. I know we will both be OK, with our physical health. It sounds like you just need to stay healthy and take precautions. Hopefully after my surgery, it will be over. But, it is a lot to overcome. It makes you feel weird, dirty, and damaged. OK, maybe that is me, and I am not trying to make you feel bad! The truth is, it is part of life, I guess. Things happen.

This is just something else we will get through and get over. Don't let it bring you down. Things will be OK. As long as we make it that way.

[2BHappy]

Mighty
Yes this is part of our lives and something we have to face head on and deal with. I dont know if you share what your surgery is for, I'm not asking for details just may have missed that post, but whatever it is I hope your surgery "solves" it for you. I dont know if its something you will have to continue to monitor or deal with afterwards..but if it is, you will get thru it.

I will have to watch for any signs (pray no outbreaks) keep myself healthly.

I dont know if you pray, if you do continue to pray daily it really really really helps.

I have said a prayer for you and your upcoming surgery.

My H again told me to stop worrying, everyone here on boards have told me to stop worrying,,DR told me to stop worrying..so I will TRY my best to take everyones advice, and STOP worrying.

It's not the end of my world!

Need to GAL this weekend,,,need some FUN