Hey Rick, are you sure you aren't Rick1956? (you and my H share the same name) The more I read of your sitch, the more I think we were in the same marriage.
I was depressed, angry and resentful a lot in my M. I could have been a WAW but just kept thinking H would finally "get it" and change. I didn't see that I had the power to change things by changing me. I was too wrapped up in his behavior being the cause of all my troubles.
Yes, it was exhausting maintaining that wall.
I have learned so much here.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
Rick - I've found it's always been a little harder for me this time of year for me to upbeat than it is in some of the other seasons. It sounds like you're turning the corner after the past few days. Can you think of any activities you can do to GAL?
JB weekdays are hard because I'm gone most the day. Weekends I'm good. Well I visited a client this afternoon and the visit ended early. So I headed home. It is kind of early so decided to hit the bay. I am looking at the most awesome sun set. Never paid attention to one. On top there are. 2 other guys in their cars alone doing the same. Wonder if they too are GAling?
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”
Lol 2. Seriously even when I thought she liked me she never ever TM and rarely called to talk about the earth going round and round. Hopefully she won't poison my dinner. If I don't post for a while, well.........
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”
Will start a new thread tomorrow when I am at my pc.
W just told me that 87 y/o FIL is getting surgery and she was at their Home buying groceries today. she knows how much I love him. I know she is having her own scares latetly. But common how much can we endure? Her world is falling apart as fast as mine did last year. But there is nothing I can do. Told her if there is anything I can do to help to let me know. Really sad right now.
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”
