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[any chance?]

48 hours to go. W then drives the moving van into the sunset.

I know that I should have hope, GAL, PMA, etc. Trying. But it sure does feel like the end.

[aeolianchaos]

I know that I should have hope, GAL, PMA, etc. Trying. But it sure does feel like the end.

What would you prefer?

Suffer some more or experience something better in your life?

Is PMA or GAL going to put any more nails in that coffin? No.

I have a good friend who I talk to about my situation sometimes. His wife nearly died from a rare cancer at the age of 25. They lost everything when Katrina hit New Orleans. They have experienced pain and struggle in a way that I really cannot fathom.

He told me something that has stuck with me: You really don't know how long you will be around this earth, so you should probably make the best of it, whatever your situation is.

It feels like the end - but like Country Song's Wisdom Quote thread: "What the Caterpillar calls the end, the rest of the world calls a butterfly." You don't know what the future holds, but you can make it a beautiful and different thing from what you are experiencing right now.

Hang in there, man.. you can come through this and in the long run, lead a happier and better life.

[Telemark]

AC, distract yourself. Get out of the house. Walk / run / bike ride / see a movie / anything to keep your mind occupied.

Of course, you know this already.

[jbnati]

AC, distract yourself. Get out of the house. Walk / run / bike ride / see a movie / anything to keep your mind occupied.

Of course, you know this already.

My thoughts exactly, AC. Hang in there, man. Stop counting down the hours. And afterward, please keep us posted on how you're doing.

[any chance?]

Thanks for the 2x4, AC, I needed that.

I will stop counting the hours,and need to avoid slipping into the deep funk over this. Being abandoned in slow motion is gut wrentching. W has no idea what will happen in the future, but she is starting the future by packing up everything she owns and much of our history and moving 1500 miles away. Hard to think about the future positively at this point.

Also retreating from the sympathy vibes from all my/our friends. Everyone agrees W needs to do what she is doing, and no one can believe she is leaving me. But very few think she is coming back.

Excuse my mood. Just need to get through this departure.

[aeolianchaos]

Hard to think about the future positively at this point.

Well.. yeah. I get it. Future with your W - sure it would be hard for anyone to think positively about that at this point.

But what about your future for you?

Also retreating from the sympathy vibes from all my/our friends.

These can be tricky - they are like the hands in the graveyard reach up from the dirt and pull you down.