It's now August. I'm still here. I'm still hanging on. Who woulda thunk it? When I started this back in February, my wife was determined to D in record time. It is truly turning out to be a marathon. It's a test of endurance. It's a test of patience. It's an opportunity for growth. It's a chance to become the best person you can possibly be.
If you're new to this, and you feel like you're trying to beat the clock, hopefully that encourages you.
GAL'ing again tonight. GAL'ing activity of choice: 35 mi. bike ride. I went down to the bike path tonight for the ride. I was actually back to my car after 26 mi. I rode the extra 9 for y'all on this message board. The last few miles were under the cover of darkness and under the canopy of trees.
It gave me a good chance to clear my head after the situation with my S this morning and the conversation with my W.
So how are S, W and the Battle of Education Pass/Fail?
(little play on words there...history geeks will get it right away)
Sorry - I am not a history geek, I am more of a math geek. I think the two are typically mutually exclusive.
However, thanks for asking. No new developments. I had convinced my W that our S would benefit from some counseling. I just came from the angle of his social/emotional development. However, there is a hidden angle, and that's the D/S angle, which I think my W still is convincing herself that the impact on our S should be minimal.
There's a hidden hope, too, that my S would benefit from the counseling to the point where my W would get herself some help. She suffers from depression and self esteem issues. It seems like she was never the same after our S was born. As a result, our M has suffered. I know I was less than a stellar H and Dad when my S was born and I made some mistakes around that time and I am sure that's contributed. However, it seems like we also stopped having fun together from that point forward. With two people with a LL of quality time, that's not a good thing.
I have my S tonight. I really don't like the time we need to sync back up when we've been apart for a couple days. He'll be with me until Sunday morning (Yay!). He will then go on a short trip with my W and her family.
GAL'ing was pretty light tonight, but it was fun. Pumped the tires on my S's bike and rode a nearby closed road due to construction and got ice cream. While we were at the store, we ran into an old friend of mine (actually one half of a couple that my W and I used to hang out with on occasion). Talked for a bit and talked about getting together. If we get together, though, I'll have to tread carefully because my W and his W are friends and they've gotten together a couple times recently. But it should be fun. Overall, I just enjoyed doing something a little different with my S.
No contact with my W today. My S really didn't like his extended day camp, but he didn't complain about it too much to me - it just doesn't affect me like it does my W.
Not too much to report today yet, but it's still early. For now, I'll take the limbo.
I'm not really seeing any movement of my W toward me, though. I also haven't seen many, if any, positive changes in her, as much as I'd like to. Through GAL'ing, I feel like I'm moving in the right direction. I have some days where I'm really feeling alive. I would love for my W to feel the same way. I would love for her to make some positive changes as well - for herself.
I just wanted to drop in on your thread JB. I see that you are still kicking tail in the GAL department. Much props to you my friend.
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa
Thanks as always, LITB. It helps take my mind of my situation, I feel like I'm really living, it makes me feel like I'm doing something for my situation, and it's throwing my W for a loop. Most of all, I feel like I am becoming the best JB I can be.
Some aspects of it, though, are taking a toll on my 43 yr. old body. I don't the VBS next week should though. At least hopefully.
The last few miles were under the cover of darkness and under the canopy of trees.
I don't the VBS next week should though. At least hopefully.