Saints are sinners who kept on going

[lostinscared]

2Step -

Be impeccable with your word as you have always been. Do not go back on your offer at this point. Ride it out. You're doing great.

LIS

[Truegritter]

Look man I am not saying be mean about it.

I am trying to get you to see

She made a choice.

That choice means certain things.

She filed for D right?

Now she is making it your fault that it didn't happen by the end of the tax year?

And you offer to rescue her.

Nice gesture BUT is it good?

For you?

We're having 4 days of straight rain here. I think it might be YOUR fault.

Damn you 2step!

Believe me I understand. I offered to pay for my W's health insurance. So she could keep seeing her therapist.

Nice guy?

Yeah I am.

BUT

If I am honest I was saving her from the cosnequences of her choices.

There is nice and then there is enabling. Or sacrificing yourself for the M.

Which one is this?

You need to figure that out my friend.

Somewhere in there is 2step. The new and improved 2step.

What does he do?

And which guy will she stop unloading on?

[2stepboogie]

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>UPDATE ALERT>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Well today brings a very special update W called a few minutes ago


W: hey what are you doing

M: Driving whats up

W: I tried calling you last night but you did not answer

M: yeah my cell phone is acting up. For some reason at home I am not getting any calls. I am not really sure what is going on. You should have called the house. What are you doing?

W: I had some stuff to do this morning. I know it's April Fools day but there is something I have to tell you. I have been debating for several days on how to tell you but I have to tell you. I just don't want to do it while you are driving.

M: Ok. I am fine what is it

W: I just feel like I have to tell you H. The judged signed the D today. You will be getting the paperwork in the mail. I am sorry. I don't want to hurt you.

M: Wow. Did not expect that.

W: What did you think was going to happen here. What were your expectations? You signed the paperwork what did you think I was going to do?

M: I guess I should not be surprised. I just did not expect it to be this quick. I signed them because I respected what you wanted but I did not want this. This is what you wanted. I guess now you have it

W: I did not want this for us. I needed this. I needed to do this.

I was quiet

W: Silence......

M: I don't know what to say

W: Ok. I am sorry I hurt you

M: Have a good day at work W

I hung up. A few minutes later she called again

W: I am sorry about the other day also. I did not mean to take it out on you.

M: That's ok

W: Say something. Anything.

M: what is there left to say?

W: ok.

M: I'll talk to you

W: ok

So there you have it. No more speculation. No more wondering. No more..................

Now before everyone jumps on and says it's only over if you want it to, don't give up. Every man and women has to decide when to move on. Every person on this board reaches a point that they are not willing to go past. Reality is reality and we each must face it on our own time.

I am enternally grafeful for the support and love I have received on this board. You people, who I will never meet, have been my closest friends throughout my darkess hour.

It has been a long road. I have learned lessons that I will carry with me for ever.

Today I am numb. I am shattered. I am heartbroken. I have zero Hope. Today is my darkess hour.

I know the sun will come out tomorrow. I know I will recover. I know I am a better person.

But

Today I see no light in my world. I see no future no past no present, time is not moving. I am in suspended animation.

A thief came and stole my soul my heart and I don't know that I will ever fully recover.

What am I scared of?

Me? I am scared of everything. I am scared of who I am, what has happened, what I feel, but most of all I am scared of waking up tomorrow and never feeling for the rest of my life the way I felt for my W.

I am here again, in a familiar place feeling something I've felt before, wondering why it's still here, why I didn't deal with it more fully before, BUT I know that if I need a second chance at it I will get it. I also know that if it comes up again, I'll recognize it sooner and deal with it more readily. This is growt, AND, I am happy to be alive.

I can't talk to her anymore, it's not that I am mad at her it is just then when I talk to her I realize how much I love her, and when I realize how much I love her I realize I can't have her and that makes me love her even more.

So BITS and Friends. There you have it.

I am numb

This is 2step signing out...................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

[MsRae]

Thinking about you and praying for you, as always.

You're such a special person, 2step.

[Redo]

Hi 2Step. I am so sorry man.

Last time you said that you signed the release waiver and sent it off. Is this what the Judge signed? or is it the divorce decree?

Either way man, sometimes i guess a WAS needs that finality to realize what they are throwing away. I think your wife will too.

[zengypsy]

my dearest 2.....

my heart feels your sadness and pain. There are no words that can really offer any comfort during this time. Please know that I am sending you a BIG hug and saying prayers for you and D.

You have been a great friend to me and have offered me inspiration. I will never forget your kindness.

You are an example that we can change even when we are tested to the max. You never waivered. Don't let this define who you've become.

[♪CS♪]

I have no words of wisdom rigt now. Just want you to know you have another person out there who cares and knows what you're going through.

[Brian in Hville]

We are here for you 2step. Give yourself a week before you make any decisions though. I am so sorry this happened to you.

[jbnati]

I am really sorry it has gotten to this point, 2step.

[LITB]

My thoughts are with you 2step. I hope and pray that life blesses you with the happiness you deserve.