W has PTSD and in MLC

[beingreal]

LMAO!!! I love them all. Especially the look inside part.

<~~~ the writer has nuthin'. go figure.

[PEI]

Ummm Jack ... what happened to the other 100 days??? Just sayin'.

Hmmmm ... lets add one for the OP ...

Cover:

Happy Anniversary ...

Inside:

Oh wait ... that's right, you're not married to him/her ... I AM!


Happy Little Friday!
PEI

[lolawar]

hey Grit
How are things going?

[Truegritter]

May 29, 1995

That is the day I lost ME.

I was coming up on my 6 year anniversary to my W (1st M)

We were going to start to have a family.

We had just come back from visiting friends for the Memorial day weekend and I got the mail from our mailbox in front of the house.

Our phone bill had come and I tossed it along with the other mail on the counter.

Noticed when I walked by it again that the phone bill was gone.

Found it in W's purse.

Looked at it and my life has never been the same since...

All my innocence was lost in that moment.

Everything I thought I knew about my life and where I was going was torn from me when I ripped open that phone bill.

I was 29 years old.

It is 15 years later and I am fighting to find myself again.

ME

The core of ME.

For 15 years I have lived thinking I was the sum of the misery, pain and failures that were unleashed upon me that day.

I had a dream last evening that I was dying. I had some disease. So in my dream I drank something that would allow me to speed up the dying.

I was saying goodbye to friends and accepting my fate.

I don't know if I believe that dreams can translate into reality of the subconcious, but I did look up what it means.

Translation is you are ready to make significant positive changes in your life.

I wanted to even speed this up by dying sooner...

In my dream.

I will borrow this from the movie Magnolia

"We may be done with the past but the past is not done with us"

I realize that I have to go back to that day and build myself again.

To be the man I promised myself I would be

...and let no one compromise who I know I am.

[Mach1]

Grit...

You keep winding the girls up here, and it may not just be a dream...

: )





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You are finding your way through this, and this was the path that you were meant to walk, maybe after that happened.

You got sidetracked , and now you are finding your way again...


Keep taking those steps bro....

AND


If you would actually pay the dammmed bill, you may forget that date......Just sayin

What day is it ??????

[cat04]

Grit,

Honey, this rebuilding you speak of. You have been doing it.

That may be the day you lost you, but don't let it become the focus.

We can't undo or change the past, but we can see how events have changed us. So now, it is time to forgive yourself, let those events go, sound familiar?, and take a step forward...

Day by day, you will get stronger...

You are beginning to know yourself my friend...

Welcome to the beginning of the journey

[Truegritter]

That may be the day you lost you, but don't let it become the focus.

Yes you're right. I guess what I realized is that my pain and therefore my forgiveness had to go back that far...

I did not heal and I am living proof of why you have to go through this process or you will carry it forward.

Infidelity is the gift that keeps on giving...

Only YOU have the power to stop it.

When you give yourself the gift of forgiveness.

More to come...

[MHL]

Hey Grit,
Walking with you today man, 1 year anniversary of the bomb for me today.

I am choosing to celebrate today because it marks the beginning of a journey I will never finish.

A journey of growth. You too are on this journey and it is days like today that we stop and take a look over our shoulder.

We look back at the pain, and the turmoil and we taste it again to remind us to keep moving forward.

When you do look back, and you already know this, you see where you were and where you are now and you see just how far you have come.

So as we take a look back today we will have more clarity in our lives for doing so. Hopefully when we fix our eyes back on the future, the path we are on will become more clear as we continue on our journey.

[Mach1]

Walking with you today man, 1 year anniversary of the bomb for me today.

Well, congrats then !!!

And it is on a Little Friday!!!

Hey man, it's just a day, and it is what you make it...

IF I would have told you then, looking forward, that you would learn so much on this journey, and be thankful for it, last year...you would have told me to pound sand...

Looking back ?

Doesn't seem that long now...

Happy Little Friday to you !!!


What's on the jukebox tonight?

[MHL]

Stealing my Thunder Mach, posting to my thread in a minute.

I think I am going to put the jukebox on "shuffle" tonight.