W has PTSD and in MLC

[Truegritter]

I had to take a little breather

Sheeesh...

Be back a little later

Where's my candy bar?

[Truegritter]

IF she wants D, what does that mean for YOU?

I am not going to fight that. If she wants it then I'm sure she has done a lot of thinking about it.

I have decided I am not going to resist any of her perceptions because that is her reality and she should be able to live it.

I have been trying hard to work on this and yes I do want my M.

It's like she is pushing real hard against me, fighting me, if I let down my resistance where will her momentum carry her?

So it means I accept that she has to go on her way. I am excited about what lies ahead for me.

I want more of the peace I felt this a.m. when I woke up and that is a direct result of me focusing on my growth and what I want.

I will continue to let the new me take hold in my life.

What is TRUE's life going to look like?

I am going to focus on my business for starters. I am really excited about what is happening there. It is a part of me that I miss. It really is fulfulling and has brought my cinfidence back.

I am going to keep focusing on me and moving through the growth I know is still ahead of me.

Who is TRUE? What does TRUE need in HIS life to be true to himself?

I am a man committed his principles and I will try to never compromise them again for anyone.

My mistakes and regrets have come from losing my core. My core is what I am still trying to get back and know again.

I am still healing from these wounds.

It is important for me to be honest in everything now. Starting with myself.

I want to act with dignity.

I want to act with grace and charity

I want my faith to be strong

I want to love with the knowledge of it that I possess today.

I want courage

This hard to answer. What are you at your core and how do you live that? I can only express that by the words above and try to convert them into daily actions or reactions in my life.

With these things in my life and these things as part of my core I know my life will be full of joy and that I will live with peace in my heart.

I act with each of these each day in different measures and I want them to be pervasive in my life so that they are me.

I am committed to this process of continuing growth on my spiritual journey.

That is not who I am fully yet.

That is the man I am becoming.

[Upside]

It is important for me to be honest in everything now. Starting with myself.

I want to act with dignity.

I want to act with grace and charity

I want my faith to be strong

I want to love with the knowledge of it that I possess today.

I want courage

This hard to answer. What are you at your core and how do you live that? I can only express that by the words above and try to convert them into daily actions or reactions in my life.

With these things in my life and these things as part of my core I know my life will be full of joy and that I will live with peace in my heart.

I act with each of these each day in different measures and I want them to be pervasive in my life so that they are me.

I am committed to this process of continuing growth on my spiritual journey.

That is not who I am fully yet.

That is the man I am becoming.

Wow True...from your posts I have read, you are well on your way especially for someone so realitively new to all of this. I have been here a long time and I still can't articulating my thoughts nearly as well. Everything I post here just seems to be venting even though most of my thoughts run much deeper. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and inspiring even us "oldtimers".

Not that it needs to be said but, your W is not is not in her right mind if she doesn't appreciate your growth.

I wish you much success on your journey.

[Mila]

TG - you've been working hard and boy does it show

I am excited about what lies ahead for me

When I started to feel like that a little while ago, I knew that I have made it....A whole new world in opening up...so much to do, so much to learn. I'm still standing but I'm alive again.

[Truegritter]

Mila & Upside

Thanks it has been rough almost week now...

I am finding more and more strength from my knowledge.

[MHL]

Thanks it has been rough almost week now...

Hey Grit,
It gets better, it doesn't go away, but it does get better.

This too, shall pass and when it does the memory of the pain starts to fade.

This thing, this time, this week is just another step along the way. There will be more hard steps to take, this we all know, but you go into them with the knowledge that you will survive and come out on the otherside okay.

I am going to focus on my business for starters. I am really excited about what is happening there. It is a part of me that I miss. It really is fulfulling and has brought my cinfidence back.

I think when you start to think of and envision your future again and actively look forward to tomorrow is when it all comes together.

Life becomes fulfilling again, you get back in touch with that person inside that you miss, and the best part is this journey you are on will make that person you miss being an even better person.

[Truegritter]

I wanted to share this that I found.

It was written by a prophet ( I have never heard of this dude)
Kahlil Gilbran

But let there be spaces in your togetherness
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you

Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another your bread but eat not from the same loaf

Sing and dance together and be joyous,but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone, though they quiver with the same music.

Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping for
Only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in
each other's shadow.

[courageous wife]

That is very cool TG...so true

[Truegritter]

Needed to put this down mostly for myself.

Yesterday was my 3 year wedding anniversary.

I debated whether or not to send card and decided to do it.

I found one under the section titled "difficult year"

I was really enthused that they had made a card section just for me!

There was only one card in the section so that's the one I got. The message was a good one. It acknowledged the challenges we are currently facing and had an upbeat finish to celebrate the memories that we have created together.

I mailed the card last week.

I had not talked to W since she had gone on NYC trip. She TM on her way back that she the trip had reminded her of a lot of good memories. We got engaged in NYC central park in front of the Bethesda fountain, the one with the angel.

I TM'd back that we will always have those memories.

She TM for fathers day becasue I am a dad to our choc. lab.
Thanked her.

She TM day before our anniversary that she rememebered the this day as being filled with excitement. I agreed and said that the best day was the next when we married. I said no one can take those memories and they good to have.

She got my card on monday and TM that it touched her heart.

I texted her happy anniversary yesterday and continued the theme of being thankful for good memories.

She TM'd "To you too."

I didn't expect anything more...

[MHL]

Grit,
I think that is awesome!!!

The shared memories are important, I am glad your W can recall those "Good" memories of the two of you together.

Good to hear from you, hope all else is going well with you.

Happy Little Friday, man!!!!

Cheers