Thanks my man. I am all about action. I am getting up each day with a sense of what I want to be and sh!t is coming together.
I am still digging though...
I realize I was full of alot of self doubt when I met W. I had been divorced for about 5 years but hadn't delt with the real issues. We both were the walking wounded and could barely hold eachother up.
Just a f@cking yard sale rolling down the hill- sh!t flying everywhere.
Originally Posted By: lostforwords
control is just a projection of inner weakness on others....truly strong self-confident people don't feel the need to control.
This is who I was ....and who I WANT to be.
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
-Who felt extremely judged by his 1st W after she had multiple A -Who never understood what he did wrong in his 1st M -Who left his first M because he was hurt -Who spent a good amount of time running away, behaving like a child -Who lost his worries partying with his friends -Who felt he was working for everyone elses approval -Who felt stuck in a business working under his mentor -Who felt unhappy where he was in life -Who had the courage to take a chance and open a new business which was an expression of who he was. -Who felt lonely and worried about whether he would ever meet someone. -Who met a fun goodhearted woman in a lot of pain. -Who tried to save his W and by his methods helped kill his M -Who abandoned his W when the sh!t hit the fan -Who wants a family but fears he is getting too old -Who wants to understand his life -Who wants to heal -Who wants to forgive -Who wants to be a better man -Who knows he CAN do this!
There is more in that reflection I see...
I will keep digging.
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
And then, one day you may realize that it is PT, and hopefully , you wont be in the men's room at a Mets game when it comes to you...
THAT would be a b!tch......right Eric ?
Men's room - yes would be a bitch. Ladies room...well that's another story
On a serious note...Mach your comment about the LL book was spot on and I just realized that. I did feel like crap when I read it and may need to read it again. Right now I am engrossed in the Journey of Abondonment book, which is excellent.
True - your getting there my friend..from time to time you may slip and fall - remember to get up and get right back on the horse. Let nothing and I mean NOTHING divert your focus off of YOU. This is your show...this is YOUR life. You control the bus dude!
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
