Oh, I am continuing on the way I have been. It is just that he is around so much more now and interacting in different ways that he hasn't for months and months and it just changes the dynamics.
But when something changes it DOES change the dynamics in some way. I am not changing the way I have been and the work I have been doing and continue to do, yet I do have to allow myself to open up some if the situation warrants instead of remaining closed off. The changes I have made aren't changing back, and ones that haven't "stuck" as much as others I am continually working on.
Yes, that's what I meant.:) And yes in a positive way. I refuse to let his actions/reactions/moods affect mine. He still can be all over the place. I don't want to be.
Mila - it is a fight for sure sometimes to try to maintain that "I refuse."
Jack - Cat did come through with that. Thanks.:) Here's to hoping I make it to pie(r)cing!
About a year ago when I first started lurking and then signed up here, I couldn't figure out what made pie(r)cing so hard if both of you wanted to work on the marriage - sounded great to me! I was so much more naive back then. NOW I get it. I can see how it would be extremely challenging, painful, difficult, frustrating, all of that.
We both have walls built sky high now. Trust needs to be rebuilt. There is so much crap in the way now that will have to be dealt with. I know I have forgiven and forgiven and forgiven and won't throw things back in his face but there is so much that needs to be worked through. I guess time will tell. Still trying to be patient.:)
