Swimming against the current - PH in piecing

[pearlharbr]

Thanks to everyone for your support and opinions. It was a long and interesting weekend. I don't have the time or energy to go into it all now, but in a nutshell:

I got a glimpse of playing the field. While I was tempted I realized that it's more important to me to honor a commitment. If I try my best to make this relationship work and it doesn't for whatever reason, there will be plenty of time then to enjoy being single.

Spent some time with BF, mostly fun with a few emotional triggers and ensuing upset. Talked about a few things with good results and decided that we are officially back together. Of course the caveat is that we may still decide in the end we are better off separating, but we are moving forward as a couple working out our problems. Also decided I need to work with an IC to learn how to deal with my own issues like how to get past thinking about BF and OW and figuring out what I want to know and what I want to just leave in the past.