Quote: If that doesn't work, perhaps there's a cleric who would offer to pay $1M to assasinate them for you?
Geeze Betsey!!! They posted they are reading here because they feel I'm dangerous and here you go with a crack like that!!!
I think you and Ellie are both right. At least as far as David goes. I don't think J capable of feeling remorse or shame. Used to think D was, but he did flaunt this affair and his first one with her so I may have just projected my feelings onto him about remorse and guilt.
Anyway, I am glad to have finally seen D in a different light than I had previously. Possibly a lot of you that posted through the mess with us saw it a lot sooner. But, I still had him sort of on that pedestal. He did at least do me the favor of knocking himself off yesterday and I do appreciate it as I feel much freerer now. Prior to that I still felt compassion, empathy and some sympathy for him. I know sometimes you can kick me over and over and I still care. My loyalty doesn't go away easily.
I also wondered if D wanted to be really sure he HAD burnt all bridges to me? That way there is no second guessing, no chance of returning. Just a passing thought I had as I'm putting the piecies of this jig saw puzzle into place now. I like things in place and I'm glad that they are finally fitting in a place that works for me. It may not be right, but it will be the best I can do without them telling me for themselves and even then do they know and would they tell the "Truth" if they did know?
I think with my slow weekend I will work on 2006 goals.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Thanks for all the laughs! But who ever said you were the most dangerous poster on the BB?
Seriously, Pam, they're smarmy people with no morals, absolutely NO class and they're probably the inspiration for country music writers.
'Nuff said, because it's allowing the tether to exist. Visualize this: take a big honking fishing knife (isn't that something lowlifes carry around for fun?) and just hack that cord to pieces. Then I'll bring my XH's big honking shotgun and blow that there cord to smithereens...
Nore more! See me waving around this pseudo magic wand? They be gone! POUF.... it's as easy as that. Be gone, losers!
Hopefully you've got some peace and fun in your weekend plans? I sure as heck hope so.
Hugs,
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
The shelties and I have been playing most weekends and this one is for me to recooperate some from whatever I have so they will have to lump it and settle for some round the house entertainment.
Ellie,
Did you spray that stuff yet??????
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Weelll, Ellie Mae, you dint tell me that you could buy sumfin in an aeriesol can!?!? That would be a lot more better than my unreliable wand... tell me sumfin, can I buy er at Walmart? How much chew am I gonna haf ter give up to buy some?
Pam, looks like Ellie Mae got rid of yer vermin just like that!
Now, on to warmth, sunshine and better things! (I think my sense of humor today is derived from this balmy 8 degrees we're having--with more snow on the way tonight.) I just can't seem to warm up. I'm just thankful there's no vermin in my horizon.
Back to my after lunch dessert--fresh fruit. I really want to snarf down some girl scout cookies, make myself some tea and curl up on the sofa with my blankie. Too bad I already called in sick once this week... was feeling a little puny and exhausted, so I took a mental health day and allowed D8 to play hooky with me. D11 was a little miffed, but what's she going to do? Take away my birthday? We slept until 1, stayed in our pjs and watched Shark Tales all afternoon. I'm recommending this as a Rx for all that ails anyone in February today...
I'm going to try and figure out if there's a way I can do that more often.
Upward and onward!
Martha May
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
As you know I love humor and this play is fun and good after a trying week with lots of deep thinking on top of being sick.
I also wish it was that easy. It is and it isn't. Even with my eyesight in question D was special to me in the beginning. I thought the sun rose and set with him. Luckly for him he should never have to deal with that from J.
He could make a person feel very special if he wanted to. He had a good sense of humor and his logic and insight made for interesting conversations. I just didn't realize you never really saw inside of D. What was he really thinking or feeling? Because that was something he doesn't share, you feel he is sharing, but what that amounts to is his reflecting back your feelings and not his true feelings.
If this sounds sad I'm mourning a bit this afternoon. I don't think that is a bad thing. I think yesterday I did really see the person he has become, I'm just saying goodbye to the person I knew and believed him to be during most of our marriage.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Betsey 
