I’m still friends with M’s brother on IG. He never really posts. But today’s story was a selfie of the 4 of them. First time. It knocked me for a loop. God how I miss them all. Not as much M, I wish he was someone who he wasn’t. But he is who he is and that was someone incapable of loving me fully . But god how I miss the little man. And his bro and sis in law. We got along so well. M was the only one who didn’t like me as much. Go figure.
Anyways, I don’t know, but by turning this new guy down Friday, he’s all about ginger. Can’t wait to see me on Tuesday. We will see how date number 2 goes.
He’s really cute. Not my usual. I’m pretty sure he weighs less than me and my feet are bigger ( on his defense, I have big feet) but he’s intelligent, funny, and carry’s a very good conversation. I have to remember it took me 3 dates to really be into M.
I do hate that I miss M. Well, everything attached to him. I just want that to go away.
Well G....if it doesnt work out with this guy at least it's good practice for the next. I am so glad you have changed it up a bit.
As far as M goes.......he liked you, and most likely loved you. He just wasnt mature enough or ready for something serious. He did you a favor though as you know.
There was one time I got pretty miffed at M because he questioned a parenting decision. All I was doing was switching my day with the ex so we could spend time together. He thought I wasn’t putting my daughter first. I got super p!ssed because I always put my daughter first. He apologized saying he has such a hard time switching from his ex to loving me the way he does. I believed he loved me but didn’t know how. And I guess that’s why I am so sad. But It’s over and done.
I do think I’m learning a thing or two with this guy. I noticed when my attitude changed, so did his. May work out, may not, but that’s what dating is for, right?
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I do think I’m learning a thing or two with this guy. I noticed when my attitude changed, so did his.
Oh for crying out lou.... THAT's ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ what we've been trying to tell you for a couple years now!
DonH Midwest Me 56 WAW-EXW 55 Met 11/95 / Married 5/00 Bomb 6/20/05 / She Filed on 6/2/06 / Divorced on 10/9/06 4 who'd qualify as GF since D & dated about 25 women since D
Certainly not defending M but I think J9 has a good point. I do think M really loved you but I don’t think he was evolved enough to know how to show it or deal with it. It’s sad, really, but you deserve a man who has done the work and KNOWS how to love.
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids
No, dawn, that’s exactly how I feel. That’s why a part of my heart still hurts. I believe he truly loved me. And I truly loved him. He just really wasn’t evolved enough to appreciate it and know what to do with it. It breaks my heart sometimes.
But I can’t change what is. Focusing on the future and yeah Don, I’ts clicking. I’m a slow learner
sweetie, it doesn't matter how long it takes one to learn the lesson. We are all on our own journey. The point is, by George I think you've got it! xoxoxo
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver
