Bed rest is good, Dr. V! Take care of yourself. Hugs and sunshine from me and Molly.
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids
I'm glad you are now in bed. Rest is a great healer. Vanilla, you've got to take care of yourself or your body is going to eventually make you stop and take notice.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
I am slowly going under. Legal fees are crippling me and I can no longer pay my bills.
Frankly I don't know how I have stayed afloat so long, sometimes just by the skin of my teeth.
The Gigalo has done a real number on my finances, I work all the hours that are available. Often I am ineffective and inefficient.
I am very low indeed and my sleep is almost non existent.
Somehow I always muddle through although I think not this time. I have laid off three staff to cut cost and am about to do so with a fourth that's 50% gone. I take up the slack myself and now there is a limit.
Maybe I am as incompetent and awful as the Gigalo says?
Anxiety is at an all time high.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
Prayers and hugs of comfort to you, Lady V. You most certainly are not incompetent and awful...you are just overwhelmed. It is easy for the one who did the damage to blame someone else as in the case of the Gigalo, but you are a strong woman and you will figure this all out.
Hang in there and know that you are loved. May your connection to your higher power be found again soon. Take care of yourself!
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids
I agree w/Dawn, you are most definitely not incompetent nor awful. You've handled your situation w/dignity and grace and continue to be a strong, independent woman throughout it all. Right now, the big picture looks bleak, but in time, as you carve out that picture, little by little, it won't look as bleak. I have faith in you and you will figure this out.
Your higher power is there...dig deeper for patience and know it is waiting for you to reconnect to it.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Try some "emotional first aid" from a Ted Talk. (I think you may have suggested it??)
It's a good one, and You're allowed.
Be well,
J
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
V the divorce really took a toll on me also. The anxiety and depression were aweful. Two years after my d I lost my job and took the job I have now. My boss is a difficult passive aggressive person. So with her constant criticism and bullie attitude I haven't really heal from my depression or truly been able to glue myself. So 3 weeks ago I gave my resignation to do my own business. Guess what the anxiety and depression have kicked up a notch. I boil it all down to fear. The fear is real. Your finances will improve in the future once all is settled.
Take deep breaths and think what's the worse that could happen? The fear will keep depression and anxiety alive.
Hang in there kiddo. It will all get better.
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”
