Me:55 yrs/W:51 yrs (has MS) M:14 yrs T:15 yrs No children together--3 each from previous marriages Wife Moved Out: 10/19/14 Wife Filed for Divorce: 10/20/14 Divorce Final: 10/21/15
I love the way you British people talk, sounds so sophisticated. My D14 talks "British" and challenges herself to see how long she can go and how many people she can fool. She is quite good at it, and can keep it up for a couple of days, but doesn't have all the cute expressions that you all do.
Just catching up on your posts. Not sure what is in the air, but I'm feeling very lethargic as well lately. I've never been a solid sleeper and could get by with 5-6 hours a night. The last few weeks quite often I sleep for 10 hours. I guess our bodies are telling us to slow down and rest. Recuperate from such emotionally dramatic and draining times that we have had.
I'm glad to hear that your diabetes seems to be under control. I too take magnesium supplements and now make myself smoothies with fresh fruits, vegetables and flax or chia seeds every day. Not a full blown diet, but a start. I think I will hold off on the elimination diet until after I sell the house and have settled wherever I end up. My liver doctor told me I have lost 40lbs since I was there last at the beginning of the year. Most of my previous weight gain was due to the steroids I was taking. Awful, awful! Gained close to 60lbs in less than 5 months. At this point I don't even get on the scale anymore. I just work towards feeling better, becoming healthier and if I fail for a day or a week I let it go. I forgive myself.
Financially, until my house is sold I'm pretty much screwed. Again, it's something I have to let be. Can't worry myself to death over it. This is the hardest for me, since I was always a stickler about paying bills and being financially responsible. Something my H was never very good at. I still hold some resentment towards him since I partially blame him for putting me in this situation.
What I'm trying to say V is that I completely get the worries that you are having. This too shall pass! There will be a path for you to walk. You don't see it yet, but I truly believe God is watching over you and will show you when the time is right.
On a spiritual side note....I have been reading up about Wave X. Something to do with increased gamma rays hitting earth and how it is affecting us and all living cells.
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
I will answer everyone's questions and post some stories about Vs exploits. Including the coach, the headlights and the nettles.
I am feeling quite sleepy.
I filed today, I went for divorce not annulment. I prepared my witness statement and I posted WH copy. So now I can say stbxWH.
The pack is very chilling reading indeed. Cathartic to write and sobering to read. It's Thursday and orange bestie and I went to the cinema, she helped me with her feedback today to finish this.
Eventually when this is all done, I shall post this on the abuse thread (identification altered). There is nothing in there that has not already been posted here on this forum.
Please excuse I need rest and a little peace, but I am glad this phase is over. I never want to see or hear from WH ever again. This has to be over. I wish him well but somewhere else.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
Sorry it came to this Vanillia. It seems like it's for the best but it's still not nice I hope you take time to heal and come to terms with what happened and how it was beyond your control
Hi V. I just wanted to drop in and offer my best wishes. It's a hard thing to do and I'm not surprised you feel tired and drained. Lots of TLC, calm, nourishment and warmth of good friends needed. I hope you have a restful weekend V.
Take care, Sotto xx
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
