Even though I had a nice time yesterday GALing and hanging out with a friend, it was hard being apart from W and kids for the first 4th of July since we were M 15 years ago. This is rough.
I messed up on the 4th for sure. I asked my W what she was doing and she said she was going to a friends party for the day. That's all it took to hurt myself for the day. I spent it on the top of a tall building in my city and watched the fireworks but all I though about was wanting to be with her. Picturing her having fun with her non married friends, drinking ... Just hurts the soul you know?
M:33 W:32 Married:8 Together:10 S:5,4 and 8 months BD: 4/1/13 W move out day: 5/4/13 ILYBNINWY,WAS. No talk of wanting to save relationship
The 4th was our 10th year anniversary. I know how you feel about how it hurts your soul. I think most of us do. God Bless all of us, LBS and WAS/MLCers alike. This is a painful way to go through life for any length of time.
