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[mishka422]

Oh, I don't EVER talk about my troubles. Even if they specifically ask I don't talk about it. It's not something I share except here. As far as anyone in my RL knows, I'm just hunky dory and all is right in the world.

I just look and feel miserable because I haven't been able to accomplish anything with all my exercise and dieting. I lose 1 pound, gain 2, lose 2 gain 1, back and forth back and forth. I don't get anywhere and it's so frustrating. I have a new plan I want to implement from 'The Biggest Loser' but I'm still trying to figure out the grocery budget for that. Food costs are outrageous! UGH! Personally, I think it's a conspiracy to make sure the lower income people in the country stay fat because the only affordable foods that can be made in bulk to feed a family are pasta and rice based. We're all going to die from poverty induced obesity!

Ok, so that may sound a little out there but think about it...really....

[SunFunOne]

Mish,

I hear you - really I do. I gained back the 40 I lost when Ex left and 10 more! I hate it! But I've learned that you have to do your best to dress your current figure then just do the best you can.

I joined Weight Watchers Online 3 weeks ago. I'm down 5. That's not a lot but its a start and I record everything I eat. It has been harder when Ryan has been sick but I'm still trying.

Fruit and veggies are unlimited on this diet. I have to really watch my intake of bread and butter. Yep - those are 2 of my fav things. I find it easier not to eat cookies, cakes, pie etc but it's the bread and butter I miss.

I only weigh myself once a week. I'm trying to get out to the gym etc. I've just decided to do a big gardening project this summer as well that will involve a lot of digging and moving of sand (I'm building a beach). I think that might be better than the gym. Getting the beach is a big motivator for me.

Anyway - have you ever tried Spark People? Its a free online group that helps you stay on track. You can Google it.

But for this weekend - try the suggestions I made earlier and just have fun!

Barb

[mishka422]

Feeling so sad this morning. Life is really too short.

A friend of mine from high school died suddenly yesterday morning from a blood clot. She left two teenage boys behind. My heart is just breaking for them. She was such a ray of sunshine. She was 42 and in fabulous health.

[SunFunOne]

I am so sorry to hear that Mish...

hugs,

Barb

[whatisis]

Sad day, Mish. You and the family have my prayers.

[kat727]

So sorry to hear of your loss. Just another reminder to tell those you love what they mean to you.

big hugs, kat

[mishka422]

The sadness is lifting and all the happy memories of Shelagh and her spirit are flooding in to replace it. Thank heavens for the mind's keen ability to heal us from our deep hurts.

Lots to do tonight after work. It's going to be a long night. Don't know if I'm up to the challenge, but giving it my best effort. I'm actually looking forward to the drive tomorrow. It should be peaceful and I can listen to my music as loud as I would like! LOL

Gabe shows his love in AOS. It's not my language but it's what he does so I have learned to show as much appreciation as it takes so he knows that I understand it's his way of showing me love. He had assumed I was going to rent a car to drive down there since I was driving on two extremely bald tires and the other two don't have great tread. I couldn't afford to rent a car and was just going to take my chances. There isn't supposed to be any rain so I wasn't concerned about the slicks. Well....he completely freaked out! Next thing I know, he has found a used tire place that had 4 of my size tires and had all 4 replaced at less than 2 new ones would have cost me and they come with a guarantee. And he said...."Happy Mother's Day". I had also mentioned that I needed to wash my car after work today because it was filthy. Well....he cleaned out the inside Tuesday and then after he got the tires on it yesterday he took it and washed the outside and he and Marc detailed the inside!!!

DANG! That was pretty awesome!

It doesn't take a whole bunch of stuff to wow me does it? LOL

[Kalni]

I am sorry for your loss Mish.

I need to talk to you for something. There is an idea I have that maybe we could make it work. Send me an email. Please
K

All is well with me. Sorry I've been MIA. Hope everyone is OK.

[mishka422]

Will do K! Good to 'see' you girl!

[mishka422]

This weekend was nice. Spent a couple hours sitting on the beach with my toes in the sand. It was super windy but worth it. I needed that badly. The drive was long but I made it without damage. It poured rain on my way home for about a 12 mile stretch through the backroads of Alabama. I couldn't see a blasted thing. Terrifying. The rest of the drive was nice though.

I felt a little strange all weekend. I drove down by myself, stayed in the hotel by myself, drove to the wedding by myself. That is so unusual when I get together with my family for a family event. We usually pile all together and do everything together. There were several times I just felt like a total outsider looking in on my family. They are a unique bunch, that's for sure. I can't put my finger on it really, it just was an odd feeling. On the other hand, it was really nice not to have to share my hotel room and deal with battling over the shower or anything. I only turned the tv on once and that was to double check the weather for about 10 minutes. Blissfully quiet.

I'm exhausted from the drive and lack of sleep though. UGH. I've had 4 cups of coffee and still can barely function.