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Originally Posted By: whatisis
I've often found taping my mouth, rather than my shoes, to be quite helpful! grin
Lol I should try that more often!

Glad the full-time hours are keeping you busy. It'll be so nice to be able to breathe again I'm sure. Put a little money away into savings for a rainy day. Get some things done that you've been putting off. smile Hope that vacation comes back soon too. Of course, having the boss gone is kind of nice sometimes, it can take the stress down a notch not having someone looking over your shoulder. smile


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Heck, she never looks over my shoulder. She is usually too busy piling her stuff on me!!! It's definitely a nice break to have her gone just so I don't have quite as much work on top of my usual!


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Haha. Awesome.


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Today was a rough one but I think I'm managing to pull through it ok.

Gabe texted me at noon and said that they let him go from his job (that he has only had for a month!) because they felt that "cooking wasn't really his passion". They hired a cook, not a chef!!!! UGH! Ridiculous! Now he's out of a job yet again but stayed surprisingly ok all afternoon. We'll see if the depression hits him like it usually does after a bomb like this.

Then, not even an hour later, I pulled out of my office to drive home for lunch and the broom drove right in front of me and I was stuck right behind her halfway home. My eye literally started to twitch and my hands were shaking. GAG! WTF do I have this reaction to her still? She's nothing. She's less than nothing. But knowing what she once was and the destruction cause because of her involvement makes my crazy apparently.

I'm trying to block it out now but if I blink too long I see her in my mind's eye and it makes me sick.


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Has Gabe heard anything from the pd? I think God might have a few doors/windows open for him. Now he just has to pick the right one! Mish don't give the broom a second thought. Gabe came to his senses and he is creating a new life with you.

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The hurt is going to be there for a long time. Someday it won't and you'll wonder when it went away.


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I know the feeling mish, OW often comew to my work, I always find myself ready to ...kill her.

Sorry about Gabe's job, something else will come up, I am sure.
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I don't have your email address K. frown I'm thinking Jeff does though. I'll send him a message and see if he can send it to Stella (and me!!!) LOL.

Gabe went straight to the SO (Sheriff's office) to talk to the major again as soon as it happened yesterday. He wanted to see where in the process they were. Apparently they are waiting to make a move when their new budget comes in on 1JUL (county fiscal year end is 30JUN). He told him he is on the short list. Fingers, toes, and eyes crossed.

Someone else referred to PTSD symptoms in relation to D and I think they may be absolutely right. At the time I read it I thought that was just an excuse for going a little further over the edge of sanity than most would have but now that I see the reaction I had yesterday I totally believe them! I couldn't believe that I had such a physical response to the remembered trauma. YUCK!

I seriously need a beach and a drink with a little umbrella in it! Instead, I'm headed up to the hills of Kentucky to a lake full of water moccassins in a dry county!!!!!


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Re: the Broom, I've frequently run into my She Who Shall Not Be Named's OP when I go over to She Who...'s(that's too damn long a monicker!) place. I have no reaction at all and never give it another thought. I think for you though the broom is still seen as a threat to what you have now, real or imagined. I've lost what I had. Maybe that's the difference, I dunno. Keep your chin up and Zumba away that tension! smile


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I plan on it! Zumba tonight!

We only have one more week of Zumba though and then she is off for a month. frown BOO!


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D final 11/17/08
Back together with no defined R 05/2010
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