When life hands you lemons add alcohol and stir!

[mishka422]

Whats not to love about Greece!? Plus I love that they were so civilised and smart, whilst we were still living in mud huts and slaying each other in a Nordic heathen stylee.

ROTFLMAO!!!!!!

So funny, but true! We were all a bit primitive for a long time weren't we?

Yes, it's not a 'cheap' vacation but it is totally worth it. Getting a vacation for a week for two including all meals for 2 for under $2000 is really a bargain especially during spring break when EVERYONE with kids is traveling.

Gabe has a 2nd interview with a job prospect tomorrow. Prayers appreciated!!!!!

[MichelleLT]

ROTFLMAO. That's too funny.

That'll be awesome! You and Marc must be so excited!

*fingers crossed* (and toes!) for Gabe!

[mishka422]

4 more work days!!!!! I'm beyond excited!

We are mostly packed. I hope I don't forget anything.

Things have continued to be good between Gabe and I. Every day it feels a little more like the early days of our R and M. Honestly, that scares the bejeezus out of me! I feel far too vulnerable and that makes me want to run and hide. It's a constant fight within myself to stop that.

There are things I really do need to talk with him about. Not TO him but WITH him. I need to understand more about what happened between us and what I did that pushed him out the door and into her arms. I have an idea of a couple of things but I need to understand.

There has to be a safe time to discuss these things openly or else what kind of a R is this. I don't want to hurl blame, I don't want to rehash wrongs, I genuinely have a need to understand his frame of mind at the time. Trust can only be rebuilt fully if he is willing to open up to me and vice versa.

What do you guys think?

[MichelleLT]

WOOT!

As long as you have keys, wallet, cell phone, passport, and tickets, everything else you can buy along the way!

[MichelleLT]

As for Gabe, I'm glad to hear everything is going well. You guys have come so far!

I think the distinction of talking with him instead of to him is very important. I don't think talking this stuff over with him will be easy, and it might cause some rocky days. But, it is important to be able to move forward, and those things do need to be addressed.

I always liked MWD's suggestion of setting aside a time to talk over those issues and setting a limit on how long that conversation could last. Maybe you can first ask him about setting aside a time to talk over those issues, let him decide on a time and place and make it clear that you just want to understand and move forward.

[mishka422]

2 more work days!!!!! I think I can, I think I can, I think I can........

[AliSuddenly]

Well...

I need to understand more about what happened between us and what I did that pushed him out the door and into her arms.

I'm not sure its just that Mish... sure there would have been issues that allowed space for him to act out.. in the context of your then R, but in my experience of A's/WAH.. its also to do solely with that person, something in them just cant help it at the time, or its indicative of some childhood issues or current depression/unhappiness in life, or just a rite of passage.. I dont know, not explaining well, but its certainly not ALL to do with the R you two were in.

Otherwise, if it was JUST the R.. he wouldnt have been flip flopping around back then (do you remember, he never did seem done?).. and he wouldnt be back now. When your done, you're DONE and Gabe never was.

[mishka422]

True statements Ali. I think you are right, he wasn't ever really done.

There are still so many questions, fears, and doubts but I'm working through them.

I'm outta here for a whole week!!!! Try not to miss my musings too much. LOL!!!

[MichelleLT]

HAVE FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[mishka422]

BEST TRIP EVER!!!!

I hardly ever saw Marc the entire week with the exception of the shore excursions we had planned and the two times I managed to drag him to dinner with me in the dining room. He met so many kids on board and he made so many friends from all over the country. He was texting them all the way home yesterday. He told me on day two that we absolutely had to do this again next year. We'll see.....

I had a little bit of a rough time the first couple of days because I was feeling a little lonely. I didn't have anyone to talk to and sitting alone reading my book out in the sun was making me feel pathetic. After the second day though I decided that was exactly what I needed to do. Just sit and be quiet with myself. It was really good in the long run.