Yes sorry your right, I'm human, I'll make mistakes and get things wrong, but abuse? No, drink?, no, and show disrespect?, no
I am just hoping that I get an opportunity to show her this is real
She has acknowledged my changes, she knows how I feel about her, but I hurt her, I know it and I'll never forget it
Maybe I read too much into things, but her interest in my not drinking I take as a positive? We both know that my drinking caused 95% of our issues, so if I'm not drinking most of our/my problems are not there
She has shown genuine interest in me, I'm just hoping this is her way of looking and seeing that these changes are not just a phase but genuine changes I've not drank for 6 months, I don't want a drink and don't miss it, I'm calmer, more focused and there are no mood swings, this is for real, this is me for the rest of my life, this for me, not for her or my kids, I'm not doing this to trick or win favour with anyone
This is me!
I just want this woman in my life again, I messed up the most important thing in the world, and I'm so sorry for it
