We Fall Down, We Get Up

[Virtually_Handsome]

I think the Big Red Machine might have been the best offensive team of that era, and probably lots of other. It is kinda funny, everyone remembers Fisk's homer, no one remembers that the Reds won the series. And without a DH.

I'd tape the game.

[john210]

Kerry did you purposely forget Big George Foster....

What a machine indeed...bet you can't name too many pitchers on that team without looking it up.

[BobbiJo]

Wow, from sex to porn names to sports. My thread has a little of everything!

Had an unsettling dream last night. Dan was, for some reason, building a second house for himself. As in, he was the one doing the work to build it.

I can't remember how I found out or why but I went there to see him, maybe he asked me there, I can't remember. I said something about him needing a different house and he said that by May I wouldn't want to ever talk to him again. And I said, "Why, because you guys are having a baby now?"

And he said "Yes. We are." And I was eerily calm in my dream. I just said, "I figured that would happen. It doesn't mean anything. If having a baby meant commitment from you then you wouldn't be where you are now."

I am good with the dream up until there. Because it really is true. And I doubt I would be surprised if she wound up pregnant. Upset, yes, surprised, no.

But then, in the dream, I said, "You know we could still get back together. If your loyalty is with the one who has your children, I already have two. We can always get visitation with your new child." WTF? And then he said he could not believe how calm I was, and I said I was not really surprised, but that once I got home I was sure I would cry about it. And he tried to hug me then bc I was about to cry, but instead I turned around and walked out of the house.

**Although, at my IC yesterday we talked about the possibility of ow being pregnant. Or even the possibility that there was already a child out there...though that is less likely. Maybe that just put it in my brain.

Ugh. Ready for Friday!!!

[ClingingToHope]

Wow. BobbiJo, you remember all of that. I usually just remember small parts of my dreams.

Baseball fans. I lived in Cincy from 1977-1981. I saw the machine on the way down. I think it's ironic that the Reds were really good from 1990 to 1995 as I got out of college, met STBXW and got married.

Then they've stunk during almost all of my marriage. Now that we are not together again, voila, the Reds are back. I love baseball. If God said "you can get married again but the Reds will never have a winning season again." I'd have to say "can you give me a night to think about that."

Sorry, BobbiJo, about those Cardinals. They folded their tent faster than a WAS being discovered with an OP.

The brain is a funny thing. Somewhere deep down you are preparing for that possible OW moment.

[AliSuddenly]

Maybe we fear the worst, but it may not happen. Afterall he insisted she wasnt moving down, or moving in with him anytime soon for years, was that right? So she'd be mad to risk getting pg if they are stuck in a long distance R.

If a guy gave up english footy tickets for me, I would take that as a VERY good sign!
x

[BobbiJo]

So little news, even with the shutdown of the boards...

*GolfGuy did not give up his football tickets. He texted Sat afternoon that he had just arrived to tailgate, wound up having to house/dog sit for his sister prior to that and could not make it down. I said no problem bc it really is no problem. I don't want serious, I just want light hearted. He texted a few times that night saying he was wishing he had come down, etc etc. Then called Sunday to chat.

*Friday night was an interesting mix. Went to the parade, then Dan took kids from there. So, I went to the pub in town (we only have 2!) where all the Homecoming crowd was. Stayed an hour or so and saw a ton of people from high school. Then went to the football game. Dan had texted me that Sydney wanted me to sit with them (I had told him I was going to be there.) So, I went and the four of us sat together for the first half of the football game. The kids love it when we do "family" stuff. Then they went home and my boot camp coach was texting me to come back to the bar.

They had a beer garden out back, I went and several people had been there since 3:00 (it was now ten) and were hammered. Amusing to watch being sober. I only had I think 4 drinks all night. Boot camp coach's hubby was abstaining as he is training for a bodybuilding competition, so he was our driver. About 4 or 5 of us bounced back and forth from the bar, to the bowling alley bar, to a private party set up in a shop on the town square. Lots of fun being with a group and laughing. Headed home around 1:45 a.m. Best part? Not having a hangover the next day. Glad I used my head.

[BobbiJo]

*So anyway Friday night was fun (sorry got interrupted!)... Met a guy who was a freshman when I was a senior, I see him post to a bunch of my FB friends so I vaguely knew him. He lives in Austin, TX. I told him I want to retire there in Hill Country. He acted surprised and excited to hear I am single which was sweet since he was cute, but as he lives in TX nothing will come of that! Then another guy stopped me to talk as I was leaving, he was 2 yrs below me in school. He 'friended' me the next day and instant messaged me Sunday night on FB. Harmless fun.

*I talked with bootcamp coach's hubby. He is a trainer and nutritionist. For $50/mo he will meet with me once a week, do weight and measurements, talk about food choices, write me up a daily meal plan of REAL food, and write up a grocery list to go with it so I make sure the fridge has all the right things. This is something I should be capable of on my own, but having someone meet with me each week makes me accountable. I am going to set it up starting next week. Sick of not having energy and eating crap...

*Dan keeps invading my dreams. Not sure how to stop it, maybe I should do some mental imagery before bed,thinking about something I want to dream about?? I would say I have a Dan dream 3 out of every 5 nights. Most are just sucky replays of me trying and him still messing around w/ow. Last night's was different in that I decided to move away and take a new job, he was crying and wanted to come with me, wanted to end it all w/ow and start over with me, etc etc. Those dreams suck almost worse than the ones where he is still being a jerk.

*Have a dr. appt tomorrow. Been having irregular bleeding again...GRR. (Sorry men for the TMI!) The exact same thing last year, I had to go in for an ultrasound. They found free fluid (?) which indicated a possible cyst. I am just annoyed bc it feels like I am living in a rerun. Dan dreams, repeat medical issues, blah, blah blah.

*This weekend will be interesting. My best friend from high school is marrying another woman on Saturday. Not sure how I feel about it but hey she was my best friend for a dozen years so I am going. Then have to rush home bc I have another wedding here, for my hairstylist/baby sitter. Hers is at a castle so that should be interesting. Funny there is a castle in the woods of the Loess Hills in southwest Iowa... The weddings are two hours apart with a one-hour drive time in between so I am hoping the first wedding only lasts 30 minutes! I told her ahead of time of the conflict. She told me no worries, just come early and talk to her before the ceremony....

[ClingingToHope]

Dreams are tough. I posted about one two or three weeks ago. I don't remember much other than we were talking about getting back together and we were sitting in the backseat of a car (who was driving?) and holding hands.

I woke up feeling really good. I really, really miss holding hands.

That will be a very interesting weekend. I didn't know Iowa allowed same-sex marriages.

[Kimmie Lee]

"Nikki Lottatang" here.

Heh....

[BobbiJo]

Oh my goodness...

So I mentioned former high school classmate who was a couple yrs younger than me flirting w/me at the bar...he looked familiar to me then, but I hadn't seen him since high school. And now he is bald/shaved head, so definitely a different look than high school.

He IMd me Sunday night. Then again tonight he is currently IM-ing me on FB. (Why did I remove the IM block last week??) Well through a couple comments he made, I figured out who he is, how he looks familiar...

He hit me up on Match last fall!! I remember his pic now....we texted a few times and he started asking way too many questions about what I liked sexually etc for never having met me, so I blocked him.
How embarrassing....how could I not realize who he was and now I have been chatting w/him so he thinks I want to be friends?? Ooops...