I am still on here everyday however not much changes and who really wants to relive this day in and day out?
The past month H has done an about face...
Being kind, texting out of the blue to see how my day is going, asking me questions about little man, seeing him more than normal...
I kept my guard up...
2 weeks ago, he said he loved me...
Guard slipped a bit...
1 week ago, he stated the more he learns about God, the more open he is to "us"...
Guard is down more than it should have been...
Came into work yesterday and received D papers...
Hello idiot...
If nothing has been learned the past 19 months, I should have realized that when he is nice, the knife is going to come out and be driven in at full-force.
Even with a friend telling me not to trust him, I still did.
Today, I feel like I did that night so long ago when he admitted he cheated.
Numb, like I just took a billion steps backwards.
Just wanted to get this down for my records.
(((Hugs)))
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
If it makes you feel any better once I got the divorce papers the days that followed I actually started to feel better for some strange reason. Maybe reality set in and I knew I had to let go at that point. Whatever the reason the pain lessened. I wish the same for you.
Hang in there! We all understand what you are going through.
M-34, H-37, No Kids Married 4yr, Together 6yr Discovered EA 7/24/10 Separated 8/6/10 Filed 8/16/10 H Moved home and Piecing 9/20/10 H returns to OW 12/10 EA was really PA I file 12/29/10 I move out 12/30/10
Don't let that get to you..and don't let your guard down no matter what.
My W started to drop the shields just a smidgen around the day I was served. Its not that we were at the very beginning of talking and she did that. It just so happen it took a month for the D papers to arrive.It was bad timing. I never let it get to me, as from day one I knew they would come and I already accepted it. This one hurdle is out the way. Get you a lawyer and protect yourself. Let the L's work it out, while you continue to work on getting back together. Still continue to GAL and 180.
Me 31 Wife 34 (Step)D 15 /(Step)S 13 / D 6 Married 3/3/01 Separated 6/4/10 Bomb 6/14/10 Served 6/22/10 EA/PA Discovered 7/5/10 Now Back Together 8/1/10
