me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
ditto- I understand not wanting to be with them, not wanting to be without them. But it sounds like you're taking a great leap forward and I'm glad to hear some hope in your "voice" a little more.
((((GIMA))))
When the men on the chessboard Get up and tell you where to go; And you've just had some kind of mushroom And your mind is moving slow; Go ask Alice... I think she'll know.
Folks, the indifference is really setting in. Not in any hurry to date, but there is this one female who is a fellow L who is very, very interesting. And the thought of another woman being attracted to me really pumps my confidence up.
...there is this one female who is a fellow L who is very, very interesting. And the thought of another woman being attracted to me really pumps my confidence up.
How could it not? Good for you.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
Well, an exciting weekend. My D6 has a heart condition that causes her to have a racing heart rate periodically. Normally, this is controlled by her medication, but sometimes, she has break through episodes, which require a hospital stay. Last night was one of those nights.
Good news is she is stabilized now on a new medication.
Last night, I let stbxw take D to the hospital and I spent the day today and will spend the night tonight with D at the hospital.
Got one truth dart in today. Just couldn't help myself. Stbxw told me D was excited when she found out I and S10 were on the way to see her this morning. Apparently, D was bouncing in the bed she was so excited. I responded with of course she's excited - her family will be together and with her. And, as expected, stbxw ignored the comment. I honestly don't think stbxw has any emotional component to her being anymore. Her loss. A loss she likely does not even realize she is causing.
I am enjoying the time with my D. Luckily, the hospital has a wireless connection so I can send this from her room and get some work done when she falls asleep.
Got one truth dart in today. Just couldn't help myself. Stbxw told me D was excited when she found out I and S10 were on the way to see her this morning. Apparently, D was bouncing in the bed she was so excited. I responded with of course she's excited - her family will be together and with her. And, as expected, stbxw ignored the comment. I honestly don't think stbxw has any emotional component to her being anymore. Her loss. A loss she likely does not even realize she is causing.
Hi GIMA. Hope you're hangin' in there OK. They are immune to truth darts. She ignored the comment because she has already justified to herself what she is doing...the true reality of the situation has nothing to do with it.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
gima, My prayers for you and D6 that she's home soon. Truth darts? Their Truth-Dart-Armor is exponentially stronger and more impenetrable than our Spew Coats any day!
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
