Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

Lotus, I feel weird thinking of myself as OW unless it can be "Original Woman!"

My recipe choice for dinner with friend:
Chicken breast stuffed with herbed goat cheese, roasted basil cherry tomatoes, couscous with currants
Source: Ina Garten

WH took photos of S and said he wished the camera would have an email function. After he left, I emailed him the pics (act of service!)

[newmama]

Thanks, FM! I scanned the thread you posted
here are 4:!

WH suggests we do something as family
WH will touch me/ not pull away if we touch
WH asks me about my activities/whereabouts (I want him to be curious....)
WH suggests we cook something together

[flowmom]

Good start! Now pick 2-3 goals that could happen within a week or 2. Then for each goal, post what you could do (or try) to make it possible for that goal to be met.

[newmama]

Ok- WH suggests we do something as family...
I could bring up a couple of activities in conversation like the children's museum or a restaurant

WH suggests we cook something together...
I could ask him for ideas for what to cook for lunch or dinner, maybe on his day off that he spends here?

WH asks about my activities..
I could say "man, I had fun last night!: (lol- is this cheating to set him up like that?"


I have no clue how I could get him to touch me/ not pull away unless I brush past him on purpose

[courageous wife]

Hey NM!

The first time I talked with my DB coach she talked about me becoming the OW...I actually thought that sounded intriging! But, at this point, I don't expect that to happen. YOur chicken recipe sounds good! Let us know how it is! I like your goals!

[newmama]

Thanks CW!
Well, tonight I left to go to my wine meet up which ended up being a HUGE DISAPPOINTMENT. I actually spent $30 on the cover for 3 tastes and 30 minutes! There were 100 people (literally!) and I didn't recognize the people I met from my last meet-up. I was underdressed and just felt very uncomfortable. So I left, called a friend and chatted for awhile, then took a long drive home. When I got home, WH didn't linger, but I noticed he emptied the dishwasher and cleaned some pots I had left in the sink. I think this means he wants to come back! (Just kidding- I am making fun of myself).

Seriously at one point I felt like I was in the Mean Girls movie because a group of girls asked me to take their picture. After I did, one said "I like your top...it's...fun!"

If you have seen the movie, OR if you are female, you know that is code for "OMG! What a HIDEOUS blouse you are wearing!" lol

It's okay...but tomorrow I won't see WH and will just hang out with S and find stuff for us to do. He needs another shot...we can also walk to the park...nothing thrilling.

However, I am aware that if WH divorces me, there are men who would want to date me! And that's all I will say about that! hee hee hee....

[Mila]

I love you newmama, you always cheer me up. I love your attitude and your optimism and your outlook on life. If your WH doesn't see what a great girl you are then he doesn't deserve you.

[newmama]

Mila, thank you! I do try and stay positive...I stay away from super sad movies and block out my childhood, LOL!

No, if it comes to D I will be very sad, bitter and negative for awhile. But until then or maybe it won't happen, gotta keep hoping and stick to the course!

[chatterbug]

Newmama {{hugs}} Limbo sucks.

[newmama]

Someone changed their name! Thanks for the hugs, C Bug! As usual, I feel better today!

I think S and I will go to the home improvement store where I will pick up flowers to plant in some pots and put on the deck. I will also look for the materials I need to make a toy box:
wood, brackets, screws...except we have a bunch of screws so just wood, brackets, and stain? And maybe wood glue and letters for my S' name?


We do need to get him another h1n1 vaccination so at some point I will take him!

AND I need to make my hair appointment- I gotta tell you that Heidi Klum's hairstyle on Project Runway this year is awesome! BUt I would want it a little longer.