Dusk at Dawn.

[avermont]

Yes, you've got it.

Not friends. You were H/W.

If you help her in future, it is just what any good Samaritan would do. Beyond that, nope.

Geez, I hope this wedding thing can be over SOON. The tension is killing me, can't imagine what it is doing to you!

Cutter, do we join Gardener in Surviving the Big D?

I feel like that is more where I belong than Infidelity/Jealousy, etc. Trying to move past all that and into whatever my life will become.

[chatterbug]

not yet aver.... Were moving forward but when we go there we go there. G man is not there.....


You go there when you say one day.... H.S. I am good ....

If not stay here.... I am staying here. Its where I belong right now.

[jasper67]

I just posted in my sitch about remaining friends w/ W then I read your POV reg nothing more/less- you were her H. Also rings true w/ me what you said about a toxic R.

It is too soon for me to come to any conclusions on what I will do...I hate that you are where you are, but it is helpful to me to see someone out in front of where I am.

Thank you for your support and I too am here for you.

[chatterbug]

Talk to you on the alt about meeting up in april. Gnosis says I need to shake your hand. I say we need to have a pint.



Yea I did not marry ladybug to be her friend. But I will never hate her. Life is life. We keep moving forward.

Plus if your smart. I do hope I am.... You will learn a ton of lessons here and live a long fulfilling life. What happens, happens. And it all happens for a reason.

Some times you need to take a few punches in the throat. Get up and dust yourself off and smile and go. 'I am surviving the worst thing that can ever happen to someone.'

Then one day you will say. 'I survived and thrived the worst thing that ever happened to me.'

And in the process make some very good friends.

[jasper67]

I agree- and look forward to meeting you.

This truly is the worst thing I think someone can go through- sure there are amputations, cancer, etc- but this, to me, is a combination of the worst things someone could have to survive.

I've said it a thousand times, and maybe it's still me in my fog- but I am somewhat upset that we do not have children b/c I would like to have some interaction w/ this woman for the rest of my life...call me stupid, sadistic, or just a romantic.

[talia]

Hey Maynard,
I think all of us who don't have kids have those same stupid sadistic thoughts - you are not alone my friend!!

Just keep in mind - if these people were good enough to be in our lives forever they would - somehow. I think there are bigger and better reasons for that... just don't know what they are!

T

[jasper67]

Good to know Talia-

I hate those thoughts b/c I realize I shouldn't need to take hostages but rather volunteers.

It really does suck though- the LBS is the one still in love or capable of love, or effort...the way I love someone is not something that changes over night or impossible to restrengthen.

[chatterbug]

Thats a good thing Maynard. Keep loving. Shows your strength of character that you can still love after all you have gone through. I think that when you come out of all this. Your love for people will have grown leaps and bounds. As will the maturity of that love you share.

Well thats what I think anyways....

[jasper67]

me thinks you're right...

And the same for you- mature love- something that will take YEARS to fully realize, and lots of overcoming obstacles as a team...

[Vulcanized]

I've said it a thousand times, and maybe it's still me in my fog- but I am somewhat upset that we do not have children b/c I would like to have some interaction w/ this woman for the rest of my life...call me stupid, sadistic, or just a romantic.

I have thanked God literally every day that H & I do not have kids. I have a close friend in RL who is going thru the same thing w/his W. and seeing how that goes reinforces how lucky I am that there aren't children involved.