M:47 M:18 D16, S19 1st S 1/08-5/08 Reconciled/May 7, 2008 Left again Nov 9, 2009 I Filed: Nov 17, 2009 Final: April 14, 2010 EX walked away from kids too
Radar working fine, just Goldey's quirky sense of humor... A little drama tonight, after a fantastic morning with D13, IC and later, good pals. Putting the finishing touches on Operation Goldey Freedom, phase 2, Saturday at 3pm. It will be epic, for sure. GO SAINTS GO
M:47 M:18 D16, S19 1st S 1/08-5/08 Reconciled/May 7, 2008 Left again Nov 9, 2009 I Filed: Nov 17, 2009 Final: April 14, 2010 EX walked away from kids too
Thanks Jeffy, our mutual friend passed along your hug. Keep praying, Goldey is not doing great tonight. Apparently even rockstars encounter flight delays.
I know, just trying to keep things light, so I don't burst out sobbing... Had a setback w/ S16 tonight, and it has me down...
I know how you feel...and I'm sorry. It hurts. But as you've told me, despite what is said and done...we are still their parents, and they know it...and they need us to love them, and they need and want to love us.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
I really don't know if I have enough in the tank to fight. But I have to. Gypsy, your post moved me to tears this morning. Just when it seems so hopeless, so dark, so sh!tty, there you are, my God Breeze. I have a plan. I'm having the Tool served today, then headed to see a movie w/ a friend. Sis arrives tonight. S16 is free to have the relationships he chooses. And right now, all three kids are choosing the Tool. S16 will be discharged next Thursday. And he won't be living with Goldey. And that makes me incredibly sad. Good thing I started those AD meds last week.
Gypsy, thanks for the boost. I'll make the call we talked about, because it is the right thing to do. Then, I'll take care of my court business, pay the rent, and see a flik with a bud. Balance my checkbook. Most can be done with very little driving or walking. All the while, sending love to the foot. Eat. Breathe. Drink water. Take meds. Move. Ask for help. Keeping it simple today. BECOMING THE BETTER CHOICE.
