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[givingitmyall]

Greek, Coach and all,

Weird walking in tonight but I'm holding my own. Fighting back some anger and resentment. I just can't even look at her. She hasn't said a word about it. Neither have I. I haven't said anything to her.

At this point, do I even mention the filing or not? I don't care about it at this point. Still surprised she decided to go this route the WAY she did. Just hurtful.

Thinking of just heading back to my bedroom.

[Super Girl]

(((GIMA)))

[givingitmyall]

She just turned in for the night. On her way by, she half whispered almost in an almost crying (sort of) "good night.". I just have nothing to say to her. She is no longer my W. Her decision.

Am I nuts to be surprised she made enough dinner for me as well. Somehow, I just couldn't eat it. Made something else for myself.

For someone so seemingly sure of herself, she sounds defeated. No pity from me.

[Serenity13]

(((GIMA)))

You are in my prayers my friend.

[givingitmyall]

After W went to her bedroom, I let the dogs out and went to my bedroom. Much easier to post from a laptop than a cell phone.

I am still amazed not that she filed, but the way she did it and had me served.

I dealt well with my anger and resentment. I just couldn't even look at her. The thought of being in the same room with her right now is unpleasant.

I spoke to the kids and made a lot of extra effort to be near them, hug them, kiss them and just be a dad. She can't take that from me.

Maybe the sadness will hit me a little later. Right now, I'm just angry and unbelievably disappointed in the way she is proceeding. But, if she wants real, it's about to get real.

[kara]

((((GIMA)))

I just read about today's developments.

Our prayers are with you.

Focus on yourself and your kids right now.

KARA

[Lotus]

Sorry this happened, GIMA. But it's not over yet. Don't let anger overcome your good sense.

[Deep]

GIMA, ah heck what Gnosis thinks, a brotherly hug ain't nothin' to be ashamed of! (((GIMA)))

Yups it sucks. As if all that had happened did not already communicate clearly the lack of respect, regard, connection that the 2 of you should be having. Think of it as perhaps W not having the guts to face you or the reality of the situation. Kind of like disregard via proxy. While it's still nothing good, that's easier to understand that an outright decision to coldly kick you when you're down.

Your feelings are all only too human and understandable. You've always conducted yourself with dignity. You know all too well how unbridled, unreasoning anger and resentment will go. I'm sure you'll feel what you have to feel, deal with it, and take it on as the good man you are.

[givingitmyall]

Thanks everyone. I really appreciate the prayers and thoughts.

Just processing what I'm feeling. No way I'm showing any of what I feel to W. For a change, she will have to guess what's going on with me.

@Deep, I think you are quite correct. She simply did not have what it took to confront me and discuss the best way out. It's much easier to hire someone to do the dirty work for her.

But, when all this is over, and she has her new life, she will be puzzled when her unhappiness does not leave her. She can't D her own feelings. And for that, I feel sadness for her. Which sounds crazy given what she has now done.

I was actually surprised she said good night to me tonight. It didn't mean anything to me though.

[mishka422]

GIMA - As I told you in the alt, you have my full support and my ear whenever you need it.

Keep your RL friends very close to you also. You will need their support and commraderie now more than ever. D is a very nasty business especially if you can't get your mind off of it for a while to blow some steam.